When you were born, so was I.

What is it about birthdays that cause all moms (I’m lumping all y’all in here with me!) to momentarily lose their sanity? And who else likes to torture themselves by looking at all the birth photos and baby books? Okay, “torture” may be a little too strong of a word, because I truly love it! However, it never comes without tears.
Judah turned six on Monday! Like most, I can hardly wrap my head around how that happened so quickly. And for some reason six has me feeling like it’s harder because it seems like the last “little” boy birthday, but who am I kidding? Every birthday brings a little struggle. Though it also brings excitement, and he is so proud to be six years old!
I use to wonder what he’d look like, sound like, like to do, who he’d play with etc. when the “baby” went away,  and it is one of my biggest joys to discover those things with all of my boys! I am so thankful for the whole journey- even the birthday struggle.
Reminiscing  in the days leading up to Judah’s birthday made me think about how it’s somewhat difficult to remember life before I was a mom, and how my life seemed so much more purposeful when I became one. I started to think about how my biggest desire was always to be a wife and a mom. It made me realize that when a baby is born, his/her birth isn’t the only one that occurs.

When You Were Born, So Was I

When you were born, so was I 

One minute the same, the next, something new 

The birth of a mother, at the very sight of you

A new beginning, a love I’d never known

Dreams realized from prayers sewn 

You are everything I wanted, but didn’t know I’d need 

More than just my son, 

you were a missing part of me 

Like a budding rose, enclosed, waiting to open bloom 

She erupted wildly, fully blossomed, from a different sort of womb 

Though I didn’t know her yet, she was always a part of me

And because of you, she became who I was always meant to be 

You were the first to call me mommy 

My new, forever name,

And with that transformation,

I would never be the same 

Oh, that smile and oh, those eyes

and  I’m just thankful that you’re mine

Everlasting gratitude, never-ending love, 

Always for my son, but first to God, above

All the wonder He delivered me, in one precious little face, 

a testament to His faithfulness, His infinite, matchless grace 

I could’ve never known to ask for, all He had to give 

Because when I became your mother, it taught me how to live 

I gave you birth, but you gave me life

When you were born, so was I 

Thankful Mindset

Last week, I had the honor of going to Alabama to meet my newest nephew, Jefferson Adler. He is precious and perfect, and a most pure example of God’s goodness and faithfulness! I could stop there on this Thanksgiving post and that, in itself, is more than enough to be thankful for! But, there’s more. My brother’s family recently moved two flights and all day in an airport from us, to a five hour car drive. That meant when the new baby arrived, Tim and I were able to load up all three of our boys and go meet him! Also, Tim had previously taken this time off from work, and the boys were getting out of school for fall break. With all that said and so much to be grateful for, you could quickly lose your gratitude on a five hour drive, with two big boys squished in a seat and one little baby with a real loud holler.
Most of the time I do try to find the good, be present and stay grateful, but it’s alwyas a work in progress.
As we were driving and I was scrolling my Facebook feed, I came across a post that broke my heart in half. A friend from grad school was in an accident due to the snow and ice last week. He and his son were on their way to celebrate his 17th birthday. He lost his son, and is in ICU, himself.

Instantly, I became most thankful for those screechy screams and hollers from the backseat.

I’m not writing this to be a “Debbie downer” today, but am writing it because thankfulness and gratitude as a mindset and way of life, together with brokeness for this family have weighed heavily on my heart this week.
It should never take a moment so sobering to bring about thankfulness, but so often it does.

That moment of realization of all that I have to be grateful for, set the tone for the whole trip for me.  When you approach situations with gratitude, even with kids arguing or babies not napping, you feel differently. Thoughts effect feelings, feelings determine behavior (CBT 101 for all my therapist friends). Also, in changing your mindset and thus, your actions, it effects other people. I noticed over the weekend, the way I interacted with my kids, changed the way they behaved. Y’all, our kids were next to perfect. Hotel rooms, close quarters, having to be quiet during naps with itty bitties in the house, long car rides.... they were a dream. We had such a great trip, fun, enjoyable...

God knew these things when he inspired all the scriptures on Thanksgiving...
He created us. He obviously knows the power of a thankful mindset.
So often we look at scripture as a “to do list,” but we need to recognize the things the Lord says are most often for our benefit. Be thankful because it’s good for you, and others.

Dr. Caroline Leaf said, 

But did you know that gratitude is essential to success? If you can’t appreciate what you have to be thankful for right now, it is harder to achieve what you desire in the future.

In fact, gratitude changes the brain and body for the better! Research on the effects gratitude has on our biology shows how being thankful increases our longevity, our ability to use our imagination, and our ability to problem-solve. 

Gratitude makes us feel that life is worth living, which brings mental health benefits in a positive feedback loop that leads to more resilience—the ability to bounce back quicker during hard times. Gratitude is therefore essential to overcoming difficult circumstances and achieving success in all areas of your life! 

If you guys would, please pray for my friend and his family. I haven’t seen or spoken to him in almost two years, but he is a good man and he does so much good for others. Pray for physical healing, and also peace in his heart for when he wakes up to the most devastating news. 

Today and always, be thankful. Make it a mindset. I would love if you’d start by commenting a quote or scripture about thanksgiving, or just something you’re grateful for! 

Happy Thanksgiving! 

Know who you are!

Women, before you can complete someone else in marriage, or truly contribute all that you're capable of, I think it is important to know who you are. I'm not talking about "What's your favorite food? What are your hobbies?" ... I'm talking about, who and what did God create us to be and why did Adam need Eve?
In Genesis 2:18 the Bible says "And the Lord God said, "It is not good that the man should be alone; I will make a help meet for him." (Side note: Right now I'm wondering who all is going to stop reading because you think I'm going to tell you that your husband's life is the only one that matters and you are just a side gig for whatever he has going on. Spoiler alert. I'm not. Keep reading.)

A few years ago, not long after becoming a "help meet,"myself, I started to get really curious about what that actually meant. I had a tug on my heart that said "there's more." I started digging and found some really interesting things. Actually, it was more than interesting, it changed my heart, and my perspective of my purpose, my worth, and the reason I was created. And, I wrote it down on a piece of paper that I've carried in my purse ever since. and then I tattooed it on my foot.
 The word "help meet" in Hebrew actually translates to "ezer k'enegdo." When you break that down, "ezer" means 1. to rescue/to save and 2. to be strong. It is used 21 times in the Hebrew Bible, eight of those times translating to "savior," and otherwise to "strength," and used most often when describing how God is an ezer [help] to man. "K'enegdo" means "against," as in "in front of, opposite, exactly corresponding to, LIKE WHEN YOU LOOK AT YOURSELF IN THE MIRROR." Stop for a second. Picture yourself, looking in a mirror, and seeing your spouse in the reflection.

"...and they shall be ONE flesh."

You are not designed to be your husband's supporting actress. You are designed to be his co-star. You are designed to be his mirror opposite, possessing the other half of the qualities, responsibilities, and attributes that he doesn't have, and he the same for you. Equal and opposite halves, completing one whole.
Genesis 2:18 could read like this: "It is not good that man should be alone. I will make him a companion of strength, who has a saving power and is equal with him."
With so much fuss in society about feminism and such, it becomes increasingly obvious to me that women, in general, have forgotten, or maybe have never even known, who they are, and how incredible and important they are. It boggles my mind to think of all the women, essentially, trying to be men, all in the name of feminism. Why would a rose go out of its way to prove it can look like a tulip, all the while forsaking the beauty that is its own?
We are created differently for a reason, and when we live accordingly, the result is true oneness with our spouse.
We've established that we are equal humans. But, we play different roles. The husband's role is to be the head, and wives, consider yourself the neck. One has to be the "leader," but both are equally as important. That's why Ephesians 5:22-23 says "Wives, submit yourselves unto your own husbands, as unto (or as a service to) the Lord. For the husband is the head of the wife, even as Christ is the head of the church: and he is the saviour of the body." It doesn't mean "women, the man is in control of you, you're his servant and he gets to do whatever he wants." It means, someone has to be responsible, someone has to lead, and that someone is him. Just think about how it would work if your neck wasn't submitted to your head. That's not going to work. Should wives contribute and give their opinions? Should husbands listen to and include them? Definitely. But the responsibility ultimately falls to the husband, and even if they get something wrong (they're imperfect, just like us), if the husband is loving (as Christ loved the church Ephesians 5:25) and the wife is submitted, then the Lord has room to work on your behalf. I guess I'm sort of speaking in relation to family decision making, just because that's what came out, but it applies to everything. This isn't where I was intending to go, fully, on this post, so I'll come back to that on a different one.

There's one more mention I'd like to make to women, concerning who you are. We've all cursed admired the infamous Proverbs 31 woman at one point, or another, or five points, or 25. We've wanted to be her, or at least come close. If you're like me, that meant doing all the things.
1. Rises while it is still night. Nope.
2. Plants a vineyard. Notta.
3. Makes her arms strong and firm. ....crickets....
I'm 0/3, and that's not even half of the list. You get my point. If we aren't careful, reading that chapter will make you feel like a total failure, and have you making yourself a HUGE "to -do" list, which inevitably moves us further from grace and into works, or trying to earn God's love and righteousness, when it is already ours. In Proverbs 31:30, when it gives a summary of what makes her value "far above rubies or pearls" it says "but a woman who [reverently and worshipfully] fears the Lord, she shall be praised," which indicates it is her spiritual and practical devotion to God that makes her so valuable. It's her love and adoration for Jesus that permeates every area and relationship in her life, which causes her to do all the things and be all she is to her husband and family. It all comes full circle, beginning with a love for Jesus. Everything we do is unto the Lord. "Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for man." - Colossians 3:23 What I'm saying, Martha, is, if you wake up before dawn, plant a vineyard and make your arms strong and firm, all in the name of checking off your list of what makes you righteous, you might as well stay in bed.
Since we're talking about who you are, women, you ARE the Proverbs 31 woman. You ARE far more valuable than rubies and pearls. You ARE strong. You ARE a rescuer. You ARE one with your husband. But, you ARE an individual, with gifts, talents, and dreams, all of your own, given to you by your Creator, for the purpose of loving Him and loving people. Know who you ARE. 

Marriage is hard work.

I have always heard people say "marriage is hard" or "it takes work," something of that nature, and I have said it, myself. Though, now, when I say "marriage is hard," it has somewhat of a different meaning for me than it did early on. Tim and I are approaching our eighth anniversary. It's been a great eight years, though not excused of its own troubles and frustrations. Until recently, it sort of felt like this "mystery" that men and women are so different. You know, you get together with your girlfriends and start talking marriage, life, kids, etc. and it seems to be this ginormous coincidence that all of your husbands do the same sorts of things that irritate you. And men, you think it's so strange that all women are interested in talking about feelings and all the details of your day. But, it's not. It's not a mystery at all. Sure, we all have characteristics that are individual to us, but overall, God designed women from the same mold, and men from a different one. On purpose. He meant for us to be different. But, he meant for us to complete one another, fit together, work together, be a team. I was a ball player for a lot of years and so I think of it in this way: can you imagine being on a team with people who were all running different plays, and no one was communicating what they were doing and why?
I feel like one of the biggest keys to making a marriage work is simply understanding the opposite sex. That's not the only key, but it's a good start.
I feel fortunate, being married to Tim, in that we both are hard headed  share a stubbornness, that from the beginning, has allowed us to truly live and love with an "until death do us part," mentality. But, even that doesn't take you very far, because a lot of people stay in a marriage, but they stay miserable in a marriage. After the vows, and the choice to be in it for the long haul, there's still a lot of work to be done. I can honestly say I've never been miserable in my marriage, but I came to a point several months ago where I started to be discontent with the status quo. I look around and wonder why Christian marriages look the same as unbelievers' marriages, why they all have the same problems and the same cycles, and that bothered me. I wanted and want to live out marriage the way the Lord created it to be. Now before you think I'm getting all self righteous on you, just understand, it wasn't necessarily because I wanted to "do right," but more so because I wanted the best. If you'll notice, God shares designs for everything in life, in the Bible, and His way is always the best way. Even business owners who aren't Christians, but operate with Biblical principals, are more successful than others who don't.
So, I started asking the Lord to help me, show me, how to make what it's great, even better. Here's my advice: don't ask the Lord something, unless you're serious about it. He will show you, and then you are responsible for what you've learned. ("For everyone to whom much is given, from him much will be required; and to whom much has been committed, of him they will ask the more." Luke 12:48)
So, over the last several months I've been doing a lot of reading (Bible and books) and listening [to podcasts], and have found what I believe is God's design for marriage. It's changing my life and the way I see and think about marriage, and relationships all together. and it IS hard work.
 I've started to feel like it's a treasure that people don't even know they need, and so I came here to share. I want to just give an overview of what I've found, in hopes that it may help or enrich someone else's life, too.
First off, I want to say the realization that's had the most impact on me, is recognizing that my marriage is not about me. and it's not even about my spouse. My marriage and how I treat my spouse is unto the Lord. On November 6, 2010, not only did I enter into a covenant with Tim, but I did it before the Lord. I made a vow to Tim, and I made a vow to the Lord. So, no matter what my spouse does or says, how he acts, or how I FEEL, I still have to honor MY vow to the Lord. Are you getting this? because it took me a minute. and then to actually do it, is another whole story, and that is why I said in the beginning that "marriage is hard work," has taken on a new meaning for me. Marriage is hard work = keeping your mouth shut when everything in your mind, will and emotions wants to use your mouth for destruction.
Main idea: your marriage is less about the relationship between you and your spouse, and more about the relationship between you and Jesus. 
So often, in marriage (or relationships, period) we wait for the other person to do what we think they should do or say, before we, ourselves, do what we should, like they have to earn the vow- that we already made- to do the things we promised we would do. The truth is, you have a responsibility, in honoring your covenant, to do them no matter what the other person does. In reality, it's often times that kind of honor, commitment and love that will elicit the response you've been wanting from that person. However, typically, when our spouse does something we don't like, we react disrespectfully or unlvoing, which perpetuates that vicious cycle. So right about now, you might be thinking "why do I have to be the one to "give in?" Because that's what marriage is. Dying to yourself. Literally, putting the other person before yourself.  I heard it explained this way: marriage is a covenant- giving up rights and taking on responsibilities, not a contract- protecting your rights and limiting your responsibilities. 
Jesus made a covenant with us. He died, first. Marriage is a model of Christ and the Church. You do the math.

More on marriage, coming soon... 

One year ago.... reminiscing

At this time last year, Tim and I were in a hotel room in Conway, trying, with little success, to get some sleep. We had to be at the hospital at 3:00 a.m. that Wednesday morning. It was hot, the pillows were all wrong and we were overcome with excitement because we were soon to meet our baby boy. I remember that day, and even days before so well. Monday I’d cooked a roast in my crock pot (what’s new? Lol) and Judah wanted to have a picnic. He and I made our plates of roast and ate it on a blanket outside on the driveway. Well, I ate, he played. We colored with chalk and I was trying my very best to imprint that time with him in my memory (I guess it worked!), you know going through all the things in my head... “these are some of his last moments as the ‘baby’”.... “does he truly realize how much life is about to change?” ... Landon was spending the afternoon with his mom. We’d swapped the regular Tuesday since we were staying in Conway that next night. That Monday was also the last day I worked at Families, inc. Tuesday, the 19th, Judah and I went to lunch with my best friend, Laney before we headed out. We’d found out a week ago that day that she was also pregnant! Cue those hormones, and it’s no surprise that we shared more tears than pizza that day. We are pretty good at “cry baby” lunches. I remember having the hardest time leaving the house that day. It was hard, emotionally, but even almost physically. And it wasn’t even a “good” or “bad,” it was just emotional, period. It was something about knowing the next time I came home, everything would be different. Sometimes it’s hard to give up what’s great, even for what’s greater. When I closed the door behind me, I was literally closing the door to a chapter in our lives. However, as one closed, another opened, and now, I can barely remember our life without sweet Jett. All of my boys have been the beginning of realizing a dream for me. When I married Tim and Landon, I gained my own family! When I had Judah, I became “momma.” And when I had Jett, I got to walk away from a career and come home to my family. When I left Families, I knew in my heart that I wouldn’t be back, even though, physically, I had no way to prove it. I haven’t shared much about the details in that chapter, mainly because a lot of it is still being written. Though I will say, today, as I’m celebrating my “one year anniversary” of being Home, and tomorrow, my baby’s first birthday, this has hands down been one of the very best years of my life. Also the fastest. It’s been tough in some ways, and brought a lot of change and growth. Mostly though, I’ve seen, more than ever before, that God is faithful and He loves me, and He can be trusted. Some parts are not things I’d ever ask to experience, but given the chance now, I wouldn’t change it. How can we ever see God’s faithfulness if we never have to depend on Him? My hope is this, for anyone reading this:  I hope you get the chance to need Him in a way you’ve never needed Him, so you can see Him in a way you’ve never seen Him.

We made it to the hospital at 3:00 a.m. and delivered our perfect baby boy at 11:15 a.m. He surprised us big in two ways: 1. He weighed 8 lbs 2 oz, which was nearly 2 lbs lighter than expected! 2. He had the darkest hair!
I know that every mom says it, but I’m going to go ahead and say it too. I can’t believe he’s going to be one tomorrow. I rocked him tonight, read “Snuggle Puppy,” and sang him my own version of twinkle twinkle little star that I’ve been singing him all year ...
“momma loves you, baby boy, you bring my heart so much joy,
You make me smile every day, I hope you feel the same way”
I reminisced throughout the past year, longing a little for those precious newborn days, naps on the couch, nighttime nursing sessions, and all the milestones already reached. After I put him to bed, Judah and I made him a birthday cake while dad and Landon talked about their day. We read some Dr. Seuss, and after the big boys went to bed Tim and I put together Jett’s birthday present. It’s so funny to look back and think about anticipating a “big” change, and to now be fully settled into our new normal.
It’s also kind of funny how things come full circle. I was thankful to be with the man I love last year at this time, sharing our excitement and also our nervousness about the adjustment and changes, as he took my hand and prayed over all these things, and I am happy to be with him tonight, able to look back over the past year and see that prayer be answered continuously.
I am so incredibly thankful for that baby boy we welcomed one year ago! Jett Jett has changed our family forever, for the best, in more ways than I can count! He has the sweetest spirit, bluest eyes and the best smile! He is everything we dreamed of and more! Happy First Birthday to my sweet baby Jett Jett!

A letter to my Kindergartener

Today is the 13th day of Kindergarten, and my heart still drops a little every time I let you out of the car. I wait so eagerly for that "bye momma, I love you!" that reminds me how much you still are my baby boy. Though, as I watch you walk through those big doors, it's followed so closely by another reminder; you're growing so quickly, that I wonder how many more of those sweet goodbyes I have. I stretch my neck backward, as far as I can, driving away slowly, so I can watch you for as long as possible. I wish so badly I could watch you all day, as you learn the songs you sing for me in the afternoons, and as you stand in line with that big boy tray you've waited so long to hold, or especially to see that little girl "accidentally" kiss you, and hear you say "Do you SEE the teacher RIGHT THERE?" I imagine you talking and laughing with your friends, mostly about snakes, sharks and Nerf guns, and I wonder who all you play with outside and if you ever feel alone.
The week before you started Kindergarten, we shared a special day, just you and me. We went bowling and to McDonald's: your choice! Then we went to your favorite place, the pet store! You held all sorts of animals, and the highlight was that you were able to hold a Burmese Python. Still makes my skin crawl. But, when you say "It's okay mom, you don't have to be scared," I try to suck it up and allow you to stretch me outside of myself, just like you've done for the past 5.5 years. I admire you so much- your BIG personality, courage and wild spirit, the way your mouth speaks simultaneously with your thoughts, the way you feel so deeply, your love of animals and people, how you sit for hours, playing at the bar, with dinosaurs, angry birds, water bottles, legos, books...and anything else in sight, your creativity, your sensitivity to others and their feelings (even though this one keeps me on my toes), and the desire you have to learn everything you can! I fail to put into words just how amazing you are. I love everything about you and I am so proud of who you are. It's no wonder I was both ecstatic to share you with the world and also struggling because, selfishly, I wanted to keep you all to myself. As we left the pet store that day, hand in hand, running through what you were sure was a tsunami lol, I noticed everything a little more and enjoyed it more, too. I tried to soak in just how it felt to run through the rain with my little boy, noticing the way your smile caused mine. I tried to hear your laugh a little more and not rush the moment.
Kindergarten Eve came a few days later and I tried so hard to pull myself together. I wrapped you up on the couch and we prayed together about every little thing. You picked out which "thin" clothes you would wear for your first day. I folded them up and set them on your dresser, coincidentally right in front of all your framed newborn pictures. What a sobering moment, looking back at the new momma I was, holding my newborn, having not a clue how quickly this day would come. Though, also having not a clue just how much joy you would bring your dad and me. We snuggled up in your bed and read "The Night Before Big School" and "The Twelve Days of Kindergarten." Dad came in, and our big sixth grader, Landon, so we all could pray together. You noted feeling a little scared, so we all reassured you. Landon was extra helpful with that. Next, was night time kisses and lovins, and that was that. I hung up your shark back pack, tucked in your lunch money and wiped away a few tears. I wondered how I'd ever make it trying to drop you off at school, and prayed the Lord would help me hold myself together- knowing you would pick up on every little emotion.  .
The next morning you initially asked to stay in your pajamas, though quickly changed your mind as you ran down the hall declaring "It's time to man up!" You were dressed and ready with such ease, more so than ANY other morning lol Of course, I had to take pictures of you and Lan, but after that and breakfast (I made your favorite, cinnamon rolls!), Landon spent the rest of the morning talking with you, letting you know all the fun things you would do and helping you to know what you could expect. You gained more courage with every word he spoke. He does for you, what dad and I never could.
Daddy took Landon to school and then met us at Stagecoach Elementary. We walked down the hall together and approached Mrs. Brewer's class. You stopped just shy of the doorway, "Mom, can we talk about it? (which is how you've always handled it when you just need a minute to process and prepare.)"  "I don't think Kindergarten will be fun," you said. We reassured you it would be a blast and dad cleverly brought up your cubby. You remembered you were #6 and off you went through the door... a little too fast for me, might I add. You confidently walked to your cubby and put your bag away, and went straight to your chair as you announced "I'm not even scared anymore!" I, realizing this was going more quickly than anticipated and that it was nearly time for us to go, choked a little on the lump in my throat, asked for a quick kiss as I widened my eyes in attempt to stop the tears. As dad and I stood up to leave, you exclaimed to your teacher "I know all about it now, because my brother, Landon, told me!" I wrestled with turning around once more because I didn't want you to see the tears, but as I took a quick glimpse, I saw that you weren't even looking our way. It felt both incredible and heartbreaking. There was no hiding the tears anymore. The hall was full of encouraging teachers, doing their best to cheer up the moms like me. Daddy likes to laugh that other moms empathetically noted "Ah it's a Kindergarten mom," as they passed by me. Who has time or head space to care that you look a hot mess in a moment like that?
I was so incredibly thankful, ironically lol, that my car had to go to the shop that day. It was a beautiful distraction, considering Jett and I got to spend the day with Ganny, at her house, unaware of the new silence at ours.
I couldn't wait to pick you up that afternoon. There is no way to describe the joy I had when you jumped in the car with the biggest smile " I had a GREAT time! It was fun alright!" Though I did kind of enjoy "It was so cold at lunch and I wanted you." The rest of the week, your commentary was much the same, "I love Kindergarten!" and "It's great to be here!" I cried after drop off, just a smidge, every day except Friday. I thought I was good until Monday rolled around. It truly has been such an adjustment from having the boys here every day, to just Jett and me. Every season comes with sweet stuff, and sour stuff.
The school only allows you to walk your kids to class for the first week. Seeing as how the first day went so well, I knew it wouldn't be long until you'd want to walk to class all on your own. I thought I might have a few more days, though. So, on the second day I got up and dressed so I could walk you in. Imagine my surprise when you said you wanted to walk in alone. I suggested letting me walk you in today, and you could walk in alone the rest of the week, but you weren't having it. You tried to make a "deal" with me lol, that we could "take turns." Though, I inevitably  encouraged you to go ahead and walk in on your own, since you were ready. How bittersweet. To be so proud of your confidence and independence, and apprehensive at the same time. I was reminded just how hard, yet beautiful, the seasons of change can be. You had to make sure I would "give you lovins" before you got out. I was so thankful, and appreciative that I could still see my baby boy in that moment. I remembered "the kissing hand" you gave me the night before, "Now even if I go to school, momma will be with me!" Yes baby. Always.
My heart's desire is for you to grow and become the man the Lord has created you to be, but if I don't let go, you can't. The letting go has already started and I see glimpses of that man in my little boy, already. I prayed to the Lord, "Help me do my part. When those moments come, when he's asking in his own way, 'Will you let me go, mom? Can I take a step towards my destiny? Am I strong, courageous and independent enough?' Help me to always say 'yes!'"
This Kindergarten journey has already been just that: a journey. An incredible, exciting and fun one, at that. On Friday you came home with a "Warrior of the Week" award, and had also been named the "Star Student!" Not to my surprise, though it does this momma's heart so good to know that other people see in you, what I see in you! You've made many new friends, and recognized some old ones, even your buddy Cameron, from Tball. You absolutely adore your teacher (and I do, too!), which became evident at dinner after your second day of school, when you delegated each one of us a task to help in "making something sweet for Mrs. Brewer." You haven't even asked about your tattered and worn "blankey" that you've carried around for the last five years, even back and forth to Montessori school. You can swing all on your own, by pumping those long legs! You ask nearly every night to practice letters and are SO eager to learn. Also, after only two weeks of school, you know nearly all of the letter sounds, and to my surprise, read the word "zoo!" It is so much fun to watch you learn and grow! I think Kindergarten might be alright with me. As long as I get that "Love you momma" at drop off, and especially if I can keep the girls from "accidentally" kissing you.

Our 1st Summer

This is one of those “mostly for me” posts. Our summer is coming to an end; my first summer as a SAHM. I wanted to capture a typical day, although this one is not truly typical because Landon is gone on vacation with his mom.
We have spent our summer taking walks with Jett in the wagon, and the big boys on various wheels, playing “shark attack” on the swing set and letting Jett swing, visiting the library weekly (to rent movies, not books of course), going to the water park, playing at the park, baking, bowling, watching and rewatching those library movies lol, and most of all, not being at work or school or daycare. We got up when we (Jett) wanted to. We played outside in pajamas and bare feet. We had nowhere to be at any specific time. And I wasn’t out there hustlin’ like a social worker, praying for clients to appear out of nowhere!
The boys had their fair share of arguments, but on those days when they snuck off to get ready together and came out twinning, I knew it would be a good day! Both in “thin” (athletic) clothes, tall black socks (Judah’s are dress socks...), wet hair combed sideways and wearing daddy’s cologne. Bubby and JuJu. Thick as thieves.
Jett has ironed out a fantastic nap schedule and has been a dream! Easy going, even napping at the pool, little guy. He typically naps 9:30-10:45 and 2-4. Both are flexible, depending on when he wakes up in the morning! I’ve been using  the first nap for my own time, and the second I will watch movies with the boys, or read.
Landon unloads the dishwasher and takes out the trash every day, and Judah collects laundry. They both clean up their rooms (sometimes). I do a load of laundry every day, but thanks to recent decluttering and a decent routine, I don’t spend a lot of time cleaning etc.
So today, Jett woke up at 6:30. He’s teething pretty badly, so he was awake twice last night, which meant I wasn’t ready to wake up at 6:30. I brought him in bed with me until 7:30. I got to chat with my sweet sister this morning, which is something else I’m so thankful for since I’ve been home! She and Cantor take walks and we get to chat, or I’ll call her while we’re walking Lol Judah woke up and wanted breakfast. Honey combs. I made his cereal. He pours the milk. I made Jett some oatmeal. He ate 1.5 bowls and a piece of peanut butter toast. He is a bottomless pit! We play in the floor for a while. I move the ottoman and sit at the edge of the rug to corral our mobile baby. Judah insists on making Jett a house out of couch cushions, so we did just that! We went outside to swing and Jett squeals with excitement! Judah wants to be pushed high in the swing and is just learning to jump out. He jumps out and asks “how high was I?” every time, and tries to beat it the next. We come in so Jett can nap. While he’s sleeping Judah and I get ready for the pool and do our chores. Then,  we make some lunch. I carried everything onto the back porch for a “picnic” just in time for Jett to wake up. I carried it all back in, made Jett’s lunch and got him up to eat. He ate for an hour...
It has been a lot cooler this week and the pool was chilly! We played there for over 3 hours. Jett is so good to get a power nap and wake up as happy as ever! I tried my best to capture Judah on video, as he danced everywhere he went. I was skeptical of taking three boys to the pool, alone, but we’ve been doing it weekly all summer, and it really has been great!
Today is Wednesday and Tim goes from work to church, so we’re on our own for dinner. Today we ate leftover lasagna.  On most days,  I will cook dinner while Jett throws crunchies on the floor and runs over them in his walker, and the big boys play outside.
We are pretty consistent about eating dinner at 6, because Jett goes to bed at 7:30. Then we get to snuggle the big boys while we tell them they’re going to bed  and then let them stay up an hour past....  baths get thrown in there somewhere. Tonight, Judah wanted to snuggle in my bed amd “look at different species of snakes” on my phone, folllowed by “funny cat videos,” and finishing it off with a bowl of honeycombs. I wouldn’t trade those time for anything.
I put him to bed, then sobbed myself stupid, reading a letter about kindergarten. He starts in 13 days. I can’t talk about it yet. Right now, we’re soaking up the last of our summer days because too soon he will be in school, Landon will be a 6th grader, amd Jett and mommy will be missing them....
This summer has been all I’ve ever wanted and more. Sometimes I still can’t believe I’m getting to do this, but most of the time it feels so natural that I barely remember not doing it. I feel so grateful to have shared this summer with them! ❤️

These 3 things.

I’m going to share a few “new” things I’ve been trying lately that seem to be working for me. Totally random, but maybe they’ll be helpful for someone else!
It turns out, there’s a little more to “adapting” to my new [best] job [ever] than I may have thought. All good things, but in the past few weeks I’ve stumbled onto a blog/podcast that has challenged and inspired me, especially in my motherhood, “homemaker” role, but truly in every area of my life I can think of. I’ve already gushed about it to some of you, but seriously, you guys should check her out- Allie Casazza, “The Purpose Show.”
Anyway, so I’ve been trying to find a “new normal” I guess, which is not always real consistent with a 7 month old. After all, I did lose a 3 hour battle today, trying to get him to nap. Normally, he naps great! I’ve been trying to do some things differently and work on a routine of sorts. I posted a little about that a few weeks ago. So here are my “things.”

1. Doing ONE load of laundry every day. I gather up the clothes from everyone’s baskets in the morning and throw them in. Then sometime during the day, I dry them (and usually at another point in the day, dry them agin 😂), then I make sure to fold them and put them up every night before I go to bed. One reason  this method would not work for you: 1. If you have something against washing everything together, because I definitely toss it all in.
It toook me a day or so to catch up so that I’d only have one each day, but it truly has helped!

These things don’t fit together at all, by the way lol

2. “Training” my hair, so that I don’t have to wash it daily, because it SAVES SO MUCH TIME! I realize that I’m late to this party, but my hair is so fine/thin and gets oily easily so I’ve always felt like I needed to wash it daily. This week is my second, and I have washed on the 1st and 4th days. That third day is rough, and I wear a hat if I go anywhere. Everything I read about it says your hair will “get the hint” after a few weeks since it’s a “cycle” you have to break. If you wash daily, your hair creates more oil. In short, I can already tell a difference on wash day because my hair feels healthy! Hoping for good results.

Ok, last thing. Hear me out on this. I haven’t even typed it out and I can feel some eye rolls coming, and I if I hadn’t tried for myself, I would be one of those eye rollers too, because “who has time for all that!”  So...

3. Making my own baby food. Now, I don’t get too crazy. I still store buy some, and I don’t have anything against store bought, if you’re wondering. But, there are several that are EASY and CHEAP.  
A lot of them can be steamed super quick (grab those steamer bags from Wal-Mart. I don’t even own a steamer basket), or butternut squash, for example, cooks easily in the oven. When I was telling my bf about this stuff, she says “So what all equipment do I need for that?”
Blender
Ice trays
Ziplock bags.
That’s it. I cook it, throw it in the blender, freeze it in ice cube trays and then store it in ziploc bags in the freezer (for up to three months!).  So far, I’ve done butternut squash, peas (frozen), zucchini, carrots, bananas, apples (a tad more involved with the peeling and cutting), green beans, sweet potatoes, pumpkin (canned)... I think that’s all. If you’ve done this, or have any other ideas on it, I’d love to hear them.
Just for example, a pound of carrots is .78. I can make 7-10 (or more) servings with that, as opposed to 2 store bought servings for $1.28.

Ok, so that’s that. And just in time. I’ve been finishing this post while sitting in my car outside my house because Jett was finally sleeping. 😅 What weirdo things have you done in the name of a sleeping baby?!

#takeiteasyonmymommaheart

My babiest baby is seven months old today. How? I know everyone feels like time moves in fast forward, but I truly cannot wrap my head around how he is seven months old. We are SUPER excited that my brother and sister in law are pregnant with their second sweet bundle! But, I  had to break the news to her that the second baby seems to grow even faster than the first. Maybe it’s because you sort of know what to expect and have seen all the milestones before. I don’t know. But it goes in hyper speed, and because it does, it seems like the urge to hold onto all the special moments is even stronger.
After we had Jett, we ended up staying at the hospital an extra day and were so ready to go home. I was so ready to be with my big boys and to wrap my mother hen wings around my whole family. However, as we got into the car to leave, I remember feeling overcome with emotion, realizing for the first time that it seemed so much quicker. I couldn’t believe the pregnancy was over, that he was already here and just like that we were on our way home. I think, for just a second, I grieved the end of that season. I can put it into coherent words now. Then, not so much lol I was an emotional wreck, of course, and that scenario actually went down more like this:
Me: Laughing, smiling, ready to go... two seconds later... bawling like a crazy person. To Tim, “This is just a warning. I’m feeling some kind of way.”
Tim: 🤔😑
After that “experience,” I wanted so badly to slow it down. I’m about to just be really honest and open, so if y’all think I’m crazy, so be it. When the nurse was doing my IV, she blew a vein. My skin has always bruised easily and badly anyway, so I had a huge- seriously huge- bruise on my left arm. I looked at it every day, wanting it to still be there, unchanged. If the bruise was still there, his birth was still close. I would reach around my back and feel the spot where the epidural was. Again, if I could still feel it, he was still a newborn. In fact, I remember the day, the moment, that I could no longer feel it. And to myself, I let out a few tears and reflected on the past several days with my new baby boy.
Overall, throughout my pregnancy, delivery and postpartum with Jett, I was a lot more enotional, so it was no surprise that I struggled some after we got home. It was kind of like, you know how if you’re going through a difficult time, like a break up or the loss of someone, you have this odd, lonely feeling that makes you want to stay in your house, because “no one out there understands,” and it feels a little like the world should not be going on around you, but somehow it is. That’s how I felt. And I was a little angry, almost, like “We just had a baby! Literally, just brought this life into the world and EVERYTHING is different!” And within a few days...days. Days. The boys have to go back to school, and husband has to go back to work. You’re just expected to go on, life as usual and I really wanted to be able to stop time, and “Can we please just have a minute to stand in awe of this perfect baby and this beautiful time in our lives?”
I soaked in those early days, weeks, and before long was feeling pretty “normal” myself. Our new normal, at least.
Then, you sleep a couple of times and are all of a sudden, taking pictures of the baby you had 2 days ago, sittting up and wearing a 7 month sticker. And in that same week, you may have had to register your first baby for Kindergarten, and question whether or not ice cream is still a valid celebration for a 5th grade progress report.
Sometimes, the growing and changing is more obvious than others, and puts a little more strain on our momma hearts. In those times, it serves us best, to focus on EVERY great thing that comes with EVERY changing season of our kiddos lives! (Life lesson credit goes to my own momma for this one!)
And for the love of mommas everywhere, don’t dismiss those more mature mommas, who stare at you and your babies with adoring smiles when you pass them in the mall or the grocery store. Welcome them. Engage them. LISTEN to them. Give them 5 whole minutes of your time and allow them to stroll down memory lane, to reminisce about the days we get to live now. Whether it’s the momma in the barber shop, whose “baby in that first chair is turning 16 tomorrow,” or the Cracker Barrel employee whose “youngest baby just turned 63,” I just know their hearts still feel that same tug, their throats that big lump, their eyes those soft tears, when they look back on all the time that has passed, seemingly overnight. One day momma, you will want that young mother to welcome you, too.

Intentional

I’m kind of a middle of the road-er when it comes to planning. Like, I don’t have the next 6 months of my life planned out by the millisecond (though I seem to attract people who do lol and I am so grateful for them and their planning antics because they keep me balanced!), but I also don’t totally fly by the seat of my pants (I know my favorite planner is disagreeing with me right now lol). I kind of have a general idea of what’s going on, and then let it ride. When I was working, I had to be very self disciplined because I ran my own schedule- and I did fine with that. I may plan which schools I was going to, or which kids I was going to see, but wouldn’t schedule it by the minute, you get the picture. But lately, I have been drawn to be more intentional. I LOVE these days at home, but after the first few days of trying to be on a tight schedule, I quickly let it go because that is not reasonable with a 5 year old and 6 month old- at least it’s not reasonable for me. And I’m good with that. But, it also is not working, to just meander through the days, weeks, months and wonder what you’ve been doing with the wind you’re sucking. So, I feel like I’m in the process- and I realize it’s a process- of finding my balance. Flexible intentionality, maybe? I just made that up.
God speaks in so many ways, and in the past two weeks He’s used a book and a blog by two similar, but different, incredible women to seriously get my attention about this, and a few other things: living intentionally, taking time for myself to be alone and to be with the Lord, to be present in motherhood, marriage and LIFE, overall, to THRIVE, rather than just SURVIVE, to be intentional and positive with my words, to clear the clutter from my home and my head and make space in both for WHAT matters!! And that means, asking myself to be really, really, really honest with myself about what actually does matter. I’ve heard twice this week, if you want to see what really matters in your life, imagine someone watching you all day, and what they would see that your priorities are. Let that sink in for a minute. Stings a little, huh?
So, this week has looked just a little different for us. We’ve cleaned Judah’s room and removed 6 trash bags full of stuff. Did a little organization to help him keep his room up better on his own, and we both feel a million times better. I’ve done some easy and obvious decluttering, like pulling out 4 trash bags full of blankets and sheets we haven’t used in the 3 years we’ve been in this house, threw out two lamps that haven’t worked in months, and a couple of baskets full of kitchen items that have been falling out on me every time I open any cabinet in my kitchen. Basically, if I don’t love it or we don’t use it, it’s gone. Oddly enough, we’ve still had time to practice math with sidewalk chalk, have a picnic and play at the park. And I do still have quite a bit of de cluttering to do.
This morning, after I got up with Jett at 5, I stayed up. I thought If I could get my shower out of the way, I’d feel good and save time later in the day. So that was great, but by now I need a nap lol However, the balance is that I decided to use this time, instead, while Jett is napping, to write a new post, which I’ve been wanting to do for a while. Annnd the other part (can we just call it balance, too? Ha!) is that Judah (who normally doesn’t watch tv during the day) is getting a little time with his favorite Duck Dynasty guys lol. He is obsessed. My 5 year old runs around hollering “HEY!” And “GOOD GRIEF!” like Uncle Si. Though, by now, he’s moved on to barricading me into a pillow hut and jumping on my head, so I’ve bought as much time as I can.
I’m excited to be on this “journey” I guess I’ll call it!  I hope to make some positive, lasting changes that will make me a better wife, mom and person.

Intentional- done on purpose; deliberate

“Where there is no vision, the people perish.”  Proverbs 29:18

10 days in the cocoon.

It’s been an interesting week. I say “week” loosely, because it’s actually been a good 10 days. This week I have spent more time with my husband since I don’t know when. I’m sure none of you are, but we are both guilty of getting into our own groove of taking care of our individual responsibilities and not quite taking enough time to focus on one another. Tim took off 3.5 days this week, and for those of you who know his work situation for the past few years, and especially recent months, you know that’s huge. We needed to be together this week. Cue The Script
 “ But we're gonna start by
Drinking old cheap bottles of wine,
 Sit talking up all night
Saying things we haven't for a while
We're smiling but we're close to tears,
Even after all these years,
We just now got the feeling that we're meeting for the first time.”

I’m thankful for the opportunity to work together this week, and the reminder that no matter who, what, when, where, why, he is my rock. My go to. My best friend. We’re one and the same. And I dare any challenge to step in front of us, when we’re working together. I often say, though a lot of it is not things we’ve shared publicly, several times in our marriage, we’ve walked through fire and not been burned. Not by our own doing, but because of the one we call Savior, and a smidge because he is we’re both stubborn enough to (as he would say) take on hell with a water pistol. THANKFUL.
More than once, the two of us were able to spend one on one time with Landon, which never happens with two smaller babes. Landon is a really. Good. Kid. He is a great big brother, and will try his best to please everyone, sometimes to a fault. He got a GREAT progress report this week, raised two grades in subjects that are tough for him, one by TEN grade points and both by a whole letter grade. The improvements are great, but what’s really great, is that smile on his face and chest sticking out 5 foot, knowing his hard work paid off. He is patient, and understanding, and my gosh, that child is incredibly helpful! THANKFUL.
There’s been a lot of changes in the making around our household, more of which I hope to share soon. One of those changes is that I recently became a stay at home Mom! It’s a dream come true for me (and that’s putting it verrry lightly. I promise to share more on that later.)! And this week, I had no job to report to, no appointments to worry with or paperwork to complete. THANKFUL.
We have the BEST village. It does take one, you know. And it takes both hands and feet for me to count, just off hand, how many people we have around us that I know I could count on at the drop of a hat. To bring groceries. Call to check on you. Watch kids. Ask for advice. Buy you lunch. And more importantly, to pray fervently and care deeply for you. We’ve had all this and more. THANKFUL.
Does anyone else ever need a good reality check? Like, you recognize that you have it pretty good, but every now and then (or daily) you just need a reminder of how good you have it. Like say, you have THREE healthy children. THREE. And you realize that even having a tough spot for a minute, is nothing compared to what some families LIVE WITH. EVERY DAY. And sometimes you just need a reminder that what feels like a broken leg, is really just a stubbed toe. THANKFUL.

Last Thursday, Judah was sent home with a headache and a 101.7 temp. We made a flying trip to the pediatrician (to the only appointment they had, which left me no time for a shower, wearing what I had on to take the kids to school, un brushed teeth, no deodorant and wearing a nursing bra. Just keeping it real.) and he tested negative for everything. Fast forward four days and we are feeling uneasy. At the walk in clinic he tested positive for Flu, type B- and just spent FOUR DAYS in close quarters with us all, including Jett. And would you know, NO ONE else caught it. Tell me He is not a MERCIFUL GOD. Tell me that prayer doesn’t work. Tell me that Psalms 91 is a fluke. It seems that a common theme in our lives lately is seeing His provision in times of uncertainty and trusting Him when it’s HARD. Yes, I get it, it’s just the Flu (my stubbed toe from previous passage), but let it be your child and your household and you might catch yourself losing your mind. And that, I would say, is such a testament to God’s mercy. You think you trust Him. You want to trust Him.
“Lord, I believe; help my unbelief!” Mark 9:24 
But when things don’t LOOK the way you think they should, it’s easy to tell that mountain to move, yet doubt in your heart that it will.

"Truly I tell you, if anyone says to this mountain, 'Go, throw yourself into the sea,' and does not doubt in their heart but believes that what they say will happen, it will be done for them.“ Mark 11:23

From Thursday to Sunday, I thought it was hard to split time between Judah and Jett. A 4 month old that requires you, and a sick 5 year old that just wants momma to hold him. Then on Sunday, we had to quarantine Judah to his room, and it has not been easy. Talk about feeling torn- and that’s when you get a glimpse- a very small one- very very small one- into the lives of some parents with ill children. And you pray for them. Like REALLY pray for them. And you repent. For taking things for granted. And I’ve had to do that this week. Not just for that, but also for making judgment calls on other people, thinking you know the situation, and you don’t.
We’ve spent hours lysol-ing, sanitizing, feeling like Mrs. Doubtfire, shedding clothes and bathing in sanitizer, going from Judah’s room to having to be near Jett. We’ve nearly physically fought with thermometers that wouldn’t read consistently. We’ve missed ballgames we didn’t want to miss. Made a trip to the ER after a fever scare. (Made a trip from ER back to Jacksonville in the middle of that, since Jett threw us a wrench and wouldn’t take a bottle.), “thankfully” the wait was 3.5 hours, so I didn’t  miss anything. We had several, some helpful, some confusing, conversations with nurses from the clinic. This was also the week my good sleeping baby started waking up every two hours all night, and teething. Y’all, it’s been a long ten days. BUT. In the big picture, and compared to all the goodness in our lives, it’s nothing. PLUS- my boy has been a TROOPER!! Seriously, his symptoms were minimal, and a lot of times you would’ve never known he was sick. I’m so so grateful for that! And he’s just hated having to watch movies, play games and have snacks delivered to him!
And what I’m REALLY thankful for, is that we’ve learned SO much lately at church, about the power of our words, and the effects of our speech, whether negative or positive. So even though we’ve had our times that we may have been an exhausted, crazy, hot mess, one thing that has kept us sane is knowing we have the opportunity of speaking life and health for Judah, Jett, Landon and our household, and the PROMISE that our words are backed by the blood of Jesus AND that
we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. Romans 8:28

I know it’s just the flu, and so many people have had to go through it this year, but I wanted to write this post because it feels quite a bit like we’ve been in a cocoon this week. Even though it’s been hard, truthfully, a lot of good has come from it and I thank God that He can use even thre messiest of situations for good. After I had the thought that we were in a cocoon, I looked up the definition,  envelop or surround in a protective or comforting way. 

Seems fitting.

Ordinary, yet extraordinary

For Tim’s and my first anniversary, I made him a scrapbook. In it, I included a page that outlined what a typical day/week looked like for us. It’s already fun to look back at that, because you have a “normal” that obviously changes, but it’s funny to think “when did it change?” Normal then and normal now, are totally different! I.e. then, we went to Cracker Barrel for breakfast a good 3 out of 4 Saturday’s a month lol! Anyway, this post is meant to be similar- a snap shot of sorts, of a fairly typical day at this point in our lives.
Jett woke up at 4:00 this morning to nurse. I will not complain, because he is a great sleeper! Prior to that he slept 8.5 hours, and afterwards he slept 2.5. Go Jett Jett Go! He acted like he wanted to goof up our sleep thing we’ve got going, by waking up several times per hour night, for Mom to re insert the pasi. Sooo, the pasi has to go. Today is day 2, and it has gone fairly smoothly, though naps are tougher than night time.
I woke up to my 6:25 alarm to get the big boys up for school. For Landon, I go in, flip the lights on, fan off, “good morning buddy!” Rub his head and back real quick, “time to get up and get dressed!” I don’t have to re visit him at all. He will dress himself (although sometimes requires a re do in that area lol) and come to the living room ready to rock and roll. For Judah, walk in, leave lights off, gently rub his back or legs, quietly “Good morning Ju. It’s time to wake up buddy.” Judah: “Uugghhh but I don’t like waking up! I’m hungry!” Me: What do you want for breakfast?” J: “I don’t know, maybe some dry cereal and chocolate milk. Can you carry me?” Me: “cover your eyes so I can turn on the light and grab your shoes out of the closet.” This process takes a good 5 minutes. Listen. Slow and steady wins the race in this situation! We came in the living room and he asked if he could snuggle with me “just for a little bit.” And since Jett was still sleeping, I could do just that! I’m so thankful for those times that I can say yes to those requests!
Normally, I would take the boys to school, but Tim had a follow up appointment from the sinus surgery he had a couple of weeks ago, so he took them today. It’s a treat for them when Dad gets to take them. We gave hugs and love, and I wished them a good first day back after the break, (boy did I miss them today after having them home!). By that time Jett was waking up, so I went to get him, nursed him, and we played together, trying out all his new tricks! He likes to blow spit bubbles, and can support his weight on his legs, so that’s a lot of fun! I held the teething ring for him to naw on (he already has two little tooth buds!) because he’s teething like crazy! I think he’s too little for that already, but no one asked me. After 1-2 hours I put him down for a nap, after reading Snuggle Puppy and Barnyard Dance, and swaddling Him. Since we’re Paci-less, I have to sort of juggle him lol to help him go to sleep. I threw some clothes in the dryer and some in the washer, and grabbed a shower.  He woke up after about 40 minutes, which isn’t normal. Teething. I gave him some Tylenol and we nursed again, and then he fell asleep in my arms to finish his nap...which ended up lasting nearly 3 hours. Everything else I planned to get done, didn’t. But I wasn’t budging. Teething is hard work, but it makes for great snuggles. During that time I had a running text convo on the daily family group text lol, and Laney and I covered everything from real life problems to momma hormones to babies and termite contracts.
When my boy finally woke up, he was feeling much better, with his happy, smiling, drool baby self!
I let him play on his playmat- that he LOVES- while I finished those 4 hour old loads of laundry. I got us dressed so we could go get Judah (today is the every other Thursday that Landon goes to his mom’s). I put little guy in his car seat, and headed out. Got two fingers caught in the garage door on the way out. Just another day in the life.
We went to pick up our grocery order at Wal-Mart. Jett hollered while the nice man and I loaded our groceries. Then we went to get Judah. I can always tell when he hasn’t slept at nap time because he’s a cranky grouch  beaming ray of sunshine! I’m usually responsible for “ruining everything” on these days lol and Lord help us if it’s a car line day! I have to give him a while to lose the edge (remember the wake up routine? Lol). When we first left he was NOT helping bring in the “grocies!” But during  the ride, he’d offered to “help bring in some ‘grocies,’ but not a lot, just a little,” and by the time we got home, he’d innovatively decided to use his bike handles as grocery carriers to bring the bags to the house from the car, and helped until the very last bag!
I ran a marathon  put up as many groceries as I could before Jett got hungry (you have to start with the freezer/refrigerator stuff because you’re just not going to get them all put up right away), and while I was feeding him, Judah informed me that I’d forgotten to put up ALL of the groceries. I put Jett down to play and finished the groceries, all the while hoping for a calm moment so that I could get some time with Judah. Jett struggled at his next nap, but finally went to sleep. So, Judah and I played a game  where he high fived my left hand for things he liked and right hand for things he didn’t. It was my sneaky way of getting him to talk about his day. It actually worked! Then we played kitchen (he orders deer ribs for himself and cotton candy for his toy lion), colored in a minion coloring book and did a crossword puzzle.
We came to the kitchen to make dinner: turkey sandwiches for the entree, Doritos for the side.  Granted, most of the time I actually do cook dinner, often in a crock pot.
Tim got home and joined us for dinner.
Afterwards, Landon had a basketball game, Bulls vs Spurs. He played a great game and we won! He made two points, several steals, great defense, several drives, and built some confidence. Love watching that boy play ball! Judah schmoozed Ganny and aunt Velda for some popcorn and Gatorade lol.
 We came home. I got Jett ready for bed, while Dad and Judah watched a bit of Moana. Eventually, I took him to bed, tucked him in, along with all 659 stuffed animals, ate a bowl of cereal, and here I am. Dreading washing my face, but looking forward to my electric blanket that’s been heating up on my bed for 2 hours! Tim is next to me on the couch, snoozing.

Just another day in the life, folks! Ordinary, yet extraordinary. I wouldn’t trade it for ANYthing.  Me and all four of my boys, doing what we do.
I know this may not have been he most entertaining post, but this is one of those “mostly for me” posts.