My sweet baby Judah,
Mommy is 34 weeks pregnant today. That means daddy and I are 6 weeks (or less) from seeing you face to face. We can't wait! You are growing, and moving, SO much! Mommy's belly is stretched to the max- or so it feels that way! I won't complain though. My pregnancy with you has really been great! I can honestly say I have loved growing you in my belly! Sometimes I get indigestion and that is sort of painful, but bearable. And, my belly is starting to be a lot to handle now, which your dad thinks is pretty funny! ;) But, everything has gone so smoothly and I couldn't be more thankful. Your daddy and I love to lay in bed at night and watch you roll around and stick out your little feet and knees. We have a few more things to get you before you can come home, like your car seat, stroller, etc. But, your room has furniture, curtains, bedding and lots and lots of clothes! I hope you will really love your room! We tried to sell our house before you got here, but that didn't happen. So, we have settled in and are getting everything just perfect for your arrival!
We have had 2 showers for you already. One was given by your "aunt" Josie and your mimi. The other was from mommy's friends at work at Families, Inc. Speaking of work, mommy took a really big test today. You were there the whole time, kicking and moving. As I was taking the test, I was thinking that I wanted to make you proud. I hope that you will be proud of your mommy :) And guess what! I passed! Now, mommy is a Licensed Clinical Social Worker. I wanted to get that out of the way because it will allow me to have more time with you after I go back to work. We are also having a shower at daddy's work in a couple of weeks! And last, but definitely not least, we are having a shower at Embassy. That's our church. You are going to love Embassy. There is no other place like it! The people there are our family. Your dad and I often joke that if anything ever happened to our church, we would probably just stay home! We laugh about it, but it is probably true.
Dad and I have an anniversary coming up on Tuesday! We will be celebrating 2 years! Two of the very best years of my life! Being married to your daddy is a lot of fun! He is an incredible man and I hope you grow up to be just like him! Minus the addiction to WWE of course ;)
It would also not hurt my feelings if you grew up to be like your big brother, Landon! He is so excited to meet you! I wish that I could capture every hug, smile and word he shares with you. He always has something to tell you and loves to give you kisses on my belly! Landon is always talking about the things you and him will do together and how he will protect you. He is so willing to share any and everything with you. He is amazing! He has already invited you to share "snuggle time" with him and daddy. And, he thinks it's pretty funny that I will be outnumbered by all of you boys! :)
No matter who or what you turn out to be, I know that you will be something incredible! There are a lot of things that have already confirmed your special place in this world, even from your conception. I feel very proud and very humbled to be your mommy, and that's nothing that I take lightly. My prayer from the beginning has been that somehow I would be enough for you, even through my imperfections. But in reality, I know that you are the Lord's, and that is more than enough. You are already playing such an important role in our family in ways you may not ever know. But, we are thankful to the Lord for you and for your perfect timing.
It is very strange to stand in your room, look in your crib and know that you will be lying there so soon. I have to admit, son, it is a little nerve wracking. Am I really going to be responsible for this tiny little human being? But when I think about you, I am reminded of your daddy's promises to me on our wedding day. He said that he would not be perfect and he wouldn't do everything right, but that he would love me, and he would love me hard. He has surpassed that promise, and I hope I can do the same for you. I can't promise perfection, but I can promise that you will be loved so hard, and so unconditionally, and that I will do everything in my power to make sure you are happy and healthy. And I know your dad will do the same. I hate to brag, but your dad and I make a pretty good team! ;)
We have some last minute things to do in these next few weeks, like buying the rest of the necessities, perfecting your room, calling your pediatrician, packing our bags for the hospital, and mostly, anxiously awaiting your arrival. There are a lot of folks out here that can't wait to meet you! We will see you soon sweet baby!
Love, Mommy
Friday, November 2, 2012
Monday, September 17, 2012
Ready or Not!
When I opened up this computer, there, on the screen I saw our family picture from last year, November 6th, which was Tim's and my one year anniversary. I saw a happy, little family of three that had no idea they would be a family of four in a short year's time. My how things change. And, my how things are about to change!
We went to our 28 week (27 wks, 3 days) appointment today. First I had to do the glucose test, which I was uncertain about. But, it wasn't that bad in my opinion. It was a small bottle of orange stuff that tasted like non-carbonated orange soda with a little extra kick that kind of made my throat feel funny. But it wasn't a big deal at all. We will know the results from that test some time this week. While we waited we got to look at an ultrasound and Mr. Judah was so busy we could hardly make out any of his cute, little body parts. We did see a foot, a 5 cm foot. Then, we got to switch to the 3D ultra sound. That was so incredible, but he was so uncooperative lol. He FINALLY showed us a side view of his face, but would never completely move his chunky little arms out of the way! So sweet though.
We learned that our [not so] little guy is already head down, and weighing in at a whopping 3 pounds! YES, that makes this new momma a little nervous. Our doctor says he is 78 out of 127 weight-wise, so yeah, a little bigger than average. I had really been thinking I wasn't doing that bad...you know, with food and stuff. I know I could always make some better choices, but I felt like I was doing pretty decent. Apparently not. Anyhow, I just need to make some better choices about what I eat, which probably means less cookie dough pop tarts. Bummer. But, I just want him to be so healthy and happy and perfect! This whole pregnancy my prayer has been that some way, some how, my body would be enough to help him grow perfectly and that it wouldn't let him down in any way, and that continues to be my prayer.
However, I have a feeling that this little man won't see December on that side of the womb! I expect him at the end of November. We'll see. Doctor says we'll look again at 34 weeks and we might "have to talk about some things." I assume that means "talk about" induction, taking him early, something of the sort. I would've expected that to worry me, but it didn't. It kind of gave me peace in the sense that maybe it will help me know what to do, regarding natural, epidural, induction, no induction, etc. I have been praying for some guidance and wisdom about the best choice for us. But, hearing that today reminded me that it doens't necessarily matter what I plan for, but that I will know the best choice to make when the time comes to make it. I guess what I'm trying to say is that it sort of relieved some pressure off my shoulders in a way. I have really been considering taking a birthworks class, and I still want to do that, but I don't know if we will get to. Driving to Little Rock on a week night for 8 weeks would be difficult.
Also, while we were waiting to do the blood work, we went and pre-registered at the hospital. That's where we got to waste time and energy filling out all these papers about our insurance that is not paying a single penny for this pregnancy or delivery. Have I mentioned that I HATE INSURANCE !!!!! We would be better off without it since we basically pay for everything ourselves and pay $400/month on top of that. Thanks Obama. I can't stand you. There you go....that's for anyone who ever wondered about my political stance (for numerous other reasons).
Afterwards we went back over to do the blood work and as I sat there getting my blood drawn I started to imagine myself going into the hospital to prepare for delivery. For a while after that I had a sense of fear and being overwhelmed. All of the sudden, everything got really real. I started to think about things I have not thought about up to this point. "What if I am scared out of my mind?" " Can I do it?" "This baby is coming really soon and there is no turning back.....does that make me a bad mom? ...Of course not. I don't want to turn back. But, I have never been a mom and now I will never not be a mom." ...... "You. are. nuts." ..... "Shouldn't I be excited?" "Why am I so worried?" .... "Life will never be the same. .... that's a good thing. that's a GREAT thing!....that is a scary thing." And that was my conclusion. That this is scary, and it is also very great. And, it is okay that it is scary and great at the same time. I shared some of these thoughts with my husband afterwards, and told him I sometimes feel like I am 17 years old and not sure how I could be a mom. He was pretty good about listening. Turns out he has some fears of his own, but he seems pretty confident in me. in us. And I think I can rest in that, too.
We sent Judah's pictures to my parents, Papa Gg and MiMi, and Tim's mom, Ganny, and Aunt Velda stopped by tonight to get a peek, too. I love watching all of their excitement about baby boy. They are going to be the best grandparents ever in the world! They already are! First to Landon and now to Judah. I also sent pictures to uncle Josh and Aunt Jenara, who are equally as proud! We are so lucky to have the family we have. SO lucky.
Our house still hasn't sold, but I have decided that it's Okay. We are thankful to have a house at all, and to have an empty bedroom that will work just perfectly for our son. .... our SON??? OUR SON! ... wow...that is weird. and also very cool! :) That is the second time that's happened to me today. When I filled out insurance papers at the hospital, I wrote that my relationship to Judah was "mother." Wow. It is just so unreal! ................ Anyway...the house...... I am okay here. I'm at the point now where I'm just ready to get his furniture in and make everything neat and cozy so we can be ready for him. Well, we are ready for him, but we are not ready for him.
Our first baby shower is on October 13th! That will be a big weekend for us! Josh will be home! :) We will have our shower Saturday. And Sunday we will do our maternity pictures with none other than Chris and Nancy with Christopher Nolan Photography! We couldn't be more excited about that! They have captured our most important moments up to this point and have been so great to have on the journey that we didn't even want to consider anyone else!
Well, here's to the past 28 weeks and here's to the next 12! We'll be ready for you, son! Mommy & Daddy love you! :)
We went to our 28 week (27 wks, 3 days) appointment today. First I had to do the glucose test, which I was uncertain about. But, it wasn't that bad in my opinion. It was a small bottle of orange stuff that tasted like non-carbonated orange soda with a little extra kick that kind of made my throat feel funny. But it wasn't a big deal at all. We will know the results from that test some time this week. While we waited we got to look at an ultrasound and Mr. Judah was so busy we could hardly make out any of his cute, little body parts. We did see a foot, a 5 cm foot. Then, we got to switch to the 3D ultra sound. That was so incredible, but he was so uncooperative lol. He FINALLY showed us a side view of his face, but would never completely move his chunky little arms out of the way! So sweet though.
We learned that our [not so] little guy is already head down, and weighing in at a whopping 3 pounds! YES, that makes this new momma a little nervous. Our doctor says he is 78 out of 127 weight-wise, so yeah, a little bigger than average. I had really been thinking I wasn't doing that bad...you know, with food and stuff. I know I could always make some better choices, but I felt like I was doing pretty decent. Apparently not. Anyhow, I just need to make some better choices about what I eat, which probably means less cookie dough pop tarts. Bummer. But, I just want him to be so healthy and happy and perfect! This whole pregnancy my prayer has been that some way, some how, my body would be enough to help him grow perfectly and that it wouldn't let him down in any way, and that continues to be my prayer.
However, I have a feeling that this little man won't see December on that side of the womb! I expect him at the end of November. We'll see. Doctor says we'll look again at 34 weeks and we might "have to talk about some things." I assume that means "talk about" induction, taking him early, something of the sort. I would've expected that to worry me, but it didn't. It kind of gave me peace in the sense that maybe it will help me know what to do, regarding natural, epidural, induction, no induction, etc. I have been praying for some guidance and wisdom about the best choice for us. But, hearing that today reminded me that it doens't necessarily matter what I plan for, but that I will know the best choice to make when the time comes to make it. I guess what I'm trying to say is that it sort of relieved some pressure off my shoulders in a way. I have really been considering taking a birthworks class, and I still want to do that, but I don't know if we will get to. Driving to Little Rock on a week night for 8 weeks would be difficult.
Also, while we were waiting to do the blood work, we went and pre-registered at the hospital. That's where we got to waste time and energy filling out all these papers about our insurance that is not paying a single penny for this pregnancy or delivery. Have I mentioned that I HATE INSURANCE !!!!! We would be better off without it since we basically pay for everything ourselves and pay $400/month on top of that. Thanks Obama. I can't stand you. There you go....that's for anyone who ever wondered about my political stance (for numerous other reasons).
Afterwards we went back over to do the blood work and as I sat there getting my blood drawn I started to imagine myself going into the hospital to prepare for delivery. For a while after that I had a sense of fear and being overwhelmed. All of the sudden, everything got really real. I started to think about things I have not thought about up to this point. "What if I am scared out of my mind?" " Can I do it?" "This baby is coming really soon and there is no turning back.....does that make me a bad mom? ...Of course not. I don't want to turn back. But, I have never been a mom and now I will never not be a mom." ...... "You. are. nuts." ..... "Shouldn't I be excited?" "Why am I so worried?" .... "Life will never be the same. .... that's a good thing. that's a GREAT thing!....that is a scary thing." And that was my conclusion. That this is scary, and it is also very great. And, it is okay that it is scary and great at the same time. I shared some of these thoughts with my husband afterwards, and told him I sometimes feel like I am 17 years old and not sure how I could be a mom. He was pretty good about listening. Turns out he has some fears of his own, but he seems pretty confident in me. in us. And I think I can rest in that, too.
We sent Judah's pictures to my parents, Papa Gg and MiMi, and Tim's mom, Ganny, and Aunt Velda stopped by tonight to get a peek, too. I love watching all of their excitement about baby boy. They are going to be the best grandparents ever in the world! They already are! First to Landon and now to Judah. I also sent pictures to uncle Josh and Aunt Jenara, who are equally as proud! We are so lucky to have the family we have. SO lucky.
Our house still hasn't sold, but I have decided that it's Okay. We are thankful to have a house at all, and to have an empty bedroom that will work just perfectly for our son. .... our SON??? OUR SON! ... wow...that is weird. and also very cool! :) That is the second time that's happened to me today. When I filled out insurance papers at the hospital, I wrote that my relationship to Judah was "mother." Wow. It is just so unreal! ................ Anyway...the house...... I am okay here. I'm at the point now where I'm just ready to get his furniture in and make everything neat and cozy so we can be ready for him. Well, we are ready for him, but we are not ready for him.
Our first baby shower is on October 13th! That will be a big weekend for us! Josh will be home! :) We will have our shower Saturday. And Sunday we will do our maternity pictures with none other than Chris and Nancy with Christopher Nolan Photography! We couldn't be more excited about that! They have captured our most important moments up to this point and have been so great to have on the journey that we didn't even want to consider anyone else!
Well, here's to the past 28 weeks and here's to the next 12! We'll be ready for you, son! Mommy & Daddy love you! :)
Monday, August 27, 2012
Ramble, Ramble
Wow! I have gone a whole month this time. But, I have made a vow to myself to not feel "pressured" to blog. Pretty much, if I don't feel like it, I don't do it. LOL! I don't have that choice with many other things in my life, so I guess that's me exercising some power!
We are 24 weeks and 3 days, today. Our house hasn't sold yet. And, we have picked out Judah's furniture!
I guess that about sums it up, eh? I am feeling pretty good these days for the most part. I haven't been sick in a long time and my meds seem to be controlling the acid reflux. However, I certainly feel things stretching and moving about....if you know what I mean. And, I have self-diagnosed myself (with the help of Google) with Symphysis Pubis Dysfunction. Sounds fun huh! Pretty much, my pubic bones are separating already because of the hormone, relaxin. I was going to call my doctor about the pain, but I had no idea how to even describe what was going on without being completely and totally embarassed out of my mind. Thank the Lord for Google. My husband is the king of Google diagnoses. He gets a new one every day. I guess thanks to this "SPD," I have lost my rights to making fun of him for it. Well, maybe not. ;) It's ok though. He is [mostly] a good sport! Really, I have a super incredible husband who loves me unconditionally and keeps me balanced all at the same time. I don't have a husband who tells me what I want to hear. I have a husband who ventures into the land of confrontation to help me stay balanced and be the best I can be. He's not concerned with making me feel good (well, he is, but you know what I mean). He is concerned with being the leader of our lives and our marriage and helping me to make sure my heart is pure in the sight of the Lord...at the risk of sounding super cheesy and hyper-religious. Anyhow, that comes from a place that I don't care to discuss, but would just like everyone reading this blog to know how thankful I am for Tim, and especially for his heart. He is truly an amazing man and does such an incredible job at being the head of our home. Don't be fooled though. He's not perfect. That's why WWE is on our TV screen right now. YUCK! ;)
I have had a few emotional bouts lately, very strange ones. There was one week when I felt like if someone pricked me with a pin, there was a very good chance that I would explode. I didn't really know what explode would mean, or what it would look like, and believe me, I thought about it. But, I felt like I couldn't tolerate anyone or anything at all! I haven't ever felt that way before. It felt pretty gross. I attributed it to pregnancy, and situations, of course. (This happened to be the week after my brother moved to Tennessee....AND....my parents were gone to Florida.) Brother and parents in a different state + pregnancy hormones = unknown explosion that I hope niether I, nor you, ever see in our lifetimes.
Since we brought up the ol' move to TN, we might as well just put it out there. That was definitely the reason I didn't blog at the beginning of the month....because I didn't want to throw up all my emotions on y'all. I will admit, the drive home after moving Josh to TN, and a few times that first week were really hard. But, I truly believe God gives us grace for the place, and this was just another example. I have done much better with this whole move thing than I expected, but it is very hard to be upset when your favorite big brother in the whole world is calling, basically every day, with something else that's happened that is so perfect that it's ridiculous. There are so many things I could tell you guys about that have lined up so perfectly. There's just no mistaking that he is exactly where he is supposed to be for this season. It really is nuts! Anyway.... He is doing great and loving Knoxville! Annnnnd.....he will be home for a 3 days visit this weekend!!! Yaaaayyyy!!!! He is probably not going to believe how roundI am Judah is.
I was thinking yesterday about how much our relationship has changed and how thankful I am for it. Josh is really my best friend! We haven't always been this close. In fact, we hated each other for a while. Mom would alwaaaays say "You better be nice. One day you're going to need each other!" We didn't believe her, but now I do. It was him that was there for me during the most difficult time of my life. When I was confused, heartbroken and felt like I was going crazy, literally, because everything I knew was changing and my whole world was turned upside down! He was just a phone call away, and I swear, was the one who kept me sane. He would always say "No, you're not [going crazy]. You're in a very good place!" And on the other side of that place, I saw that he was right, but it was the trust I had in him that helped me survive until then. Then, we lived together for a year, that was absolutely one of the best things ever! It was truly a time of healing for both of us. It was also a time for late night drinks and half price appetizers at Applebee's all throughout Christmas break!!!! SCORE!!! :) You know those times that are so awful that even your closest friends have trouble with..... it hurts them to see you hurting, so they tend to shy away....p.s. I have done that, myself.....but during those times for me, he didn't shy away. Right there in the middle of my tears and my brokenness, was him. Usually with no need for words, just being there. He taught me what it meant to be content with only Jesus when everything else was chaos. He's the type that understands me without asking a single question and can offer the utmost reassurance with just a smile or a scratch on the back. He's also the one who woke up and went to Walgreen's at 3 am to get me pain meds. And, the one who brought me flowers just to let me know he appreciated me. And, I think he was more excited than even Tim and I on our wedding day!!! ....... Well, forgive me while I've gone all nostalgic on y'all! LOL! But.... I am pretty sentimental, and definitely emotional right now lol....but Josh's house is on the market and he most likely never live in that house again. To me, him moving out of the house was kind of like the end to a season that was what I considered to be the most crucial season of my life, and not to mention one of the greatest! Now, he will always be so important and so much a part of my life. No question about that. But, maybe you can see why the dreaded move was so dreaded! However, with ends comes new beginnings and I could not be more excited about his new beginning! There. Maybe I can move on with myself now. LOL.
Let's talk about Judah!! He is moving like CRAZY!!! And, my oh my, it is the most incredible feeling ever!! I usually lay on my back for a few minutes before I turn to my side to go to sleep, and that is when little man gets busy in there! His movements can't really be felt from the outside yet, but Tim and I both saw him move big time Friday night! It was awesome! I really can't wait to meet the little guy. Niether can Landon! He is so stinking excited!! He has become my health police. Everything I eat, he says "Is that healthy for baby?" Too cute, huh! He loves his little brother already!!
Tim and I had a nice, long, conversation tonight about delivery anxieties...you know....natural, being induced, c-section??????????????????? That is how I feel. I have been reading and talking to a few people I trust, but this is such a touchy subject. Some folks are so concerned with pushing their beliefs on you that you can't even separate out their biased opinions from what is logical. I have thought about opening up the discussion on facebook just to get some ideas and reasons why people believe what they do. But, people can't just leave it at that. So, I will probably avoid that can of worms and continue talking with people around me and praying for the best decisions for Judah and me.
This post has sort of been more like a ramble than a pregnancy update. Maybe I will do better next time around, but no promises! :)
We are 24 weeks and 3 days, today. Our house hasn't sold yet. And, we have picked out Judah's furniture!
I guess that about sums it up, eh? I am feeling pretty good these days for the most part. I haven't been sick in a long time and my meds seem to be controlling the acid reflux. However, I certainly feel things stretching and moving about....if you know what I mean. And, I have self-diagnosed myself (with the help of Google) with Symphysis Pubis Dysfunction. Sounds fun huh! Pretty much, my pubic bones are separating already because of the hormone, relaxin. I was going to call my doctor about the pain, but I had no idea how to even describe what was going on without being completely and totally embarassed out of my mind. Thank the Lord for Google. My husband is the king of Google diagnoses. He gets a new one every day. I guess thanks to this "SPD," I have lost my rights to making fun of him for it. Well, maybe not. ;) It's ok though. He is [mostly] a good sport! Really, I have a super incredible husband who loves me unconditionally and keeps me balanced all at the same time. I don't have a husband who tells me what I want to hear. I have a husband who ventures into the land of confrontation to help me stay balanced and be the best I can be. He's not concerned with making me feel good (well, he is, but you know what I mean). He is concerned with being the leader of our lives and our marriage and helping me to make sure my heart is pure in the sight of the Lord...at the risk of sounding super cheesy and hyper-religious. Anyhow, that comes from a place that I don't care to discuss, but would just like everyone reading this blog to know how thankful I am for Tim, and especially for his heart. He is truly an amazing man and does such an incredible job at being the head of our home. Don't be fooled though. He's not perfect. That's why WWE is on our TV screen right now. YUCK! ;)
I have had a few emotional bouts lately, very strange ones. There was one week when I felt like if someone pricked me with a pin, there was a very good chance that I would explode. I didn't really know what explode would mean, or what it would look like, and believe me, I thought about it. But, I felt like I couldn't tolerate anyone or anything at all! I haven't ever felt that way before. It felt pretty gross. I attributed it to pregnancy, and situations, of course. (This happened to be the week after my brother moved to Tennessee....AND....my parents were gone to Florida.) Brother and parents in a different state + pregnancy hormones = unknown explosion that I hope niether I, nor you, ever see in our lifetimes.
Since we brought up the ol' move to TN, we might as well just put it out there. That was definitely the reason I didn't blog at the beginning of the month....because I didn't want to throw up all my emotions on y'all. I will admit, the drive home after moving Josh to TN, and a few times that first week were really hard. But, I truly believe God gives us grace for the place, and this was just another example. I have done much better with this whole move thing than I expected, but it is very hard to be upset when your favorite big brother in the whole world is calling, basically every day, with something else that's happened that is so perfect that it's ridiculous. There are so many things I could tell you guys about that have lined up so perfectly. There's just no mistaking that he is exactly where he is supposed to be for this season. It really is nuts! Anyway.... He is doing great and loving Knoxville! Annnnnd.....he will be home for a 3 days visit this weekend!!! Yaaaayyyy!!!! He is probably not going to believe how round
I was thinking yesterday about how much our relationship has changed and how thankful I am for it. Josh is really my best friend! We haven't always been this close. In fact, we hated each other for a while. Mom would alwaaaays say "You better be nice. One day you're going to need each other!" We didn't believe her, but now I do. It was him that was there for me during the most difficult time of my life. When I was confused, heartbroken and felt like I was going crazy, literally, because everything I knew was changing and my whole world was turned upside down! He was just a phone call away, and I swear, was the one who kept me sane. He would always say "No, you're not [going crazy]. You're in a very good place!" And on the other side of that place, I saw that he was right, but it was the trust I had in him that helped me survive until then. Then, we lived together for a year, that was absolutely one of the best things ever! It was truly a time of healing for both of us. It was also a time for late night drinks and half price appetizers at Applebee's all throughout Christmas break!!!! SCORE!!! :) You know those times that are so awful that even your closest friends have trouble with..... it hurts them to see you hurting, so they tend to shy away....p.s. I have done that, myself.....but during those times for me, he didn't shy away. Right there in the middle of my tears and my brokenness, was him. Usually with no need for words, just being there. He taught me what it meant to be content with only Jesus when everything else was chaos. He's the type that understands me without asking a single question and can offer the utmost reassurance with just a smile or a scratch on the back. He's also the one who woke up and went to Walgreen's at 3 am to get me pain meds. And, the one who brought me flowers just to let me know he appreciated me. And, I think he was more excited than even Tim and I on our wedding day!!! ....... Well, forgive me while I've gone all nostalgic on y'all! LOL! But.... I am pretty sentimental, and definitely emotional right now lol....but Josh's house is on the market and he most likely never live in that house again. To me, him moving out of the house was kind of like the end to a season that was what I considered to be the most crucial season of my life, and not to mention one of the greatest! Now, he will always be so important and so much a part of my life. No question about that. But, maybe you can see why the dreaded move was so dreaded! However, with ends comes new beginnings and I could not be more excited about his new beginning! There. Maybe I can move on with myself now. LOL.
Let's talk about Judah!! He is moving like CRAZY!!! And, my oh my, it is the most incredible feeling ever!! I usually lay on my back for a few minutes before I turn to my side to go to sleep, and that is when little man gets busy in there! His movements can't really be felt from the outside yet, but Tim and I both saw him move big time Friday night! It was awesome! I really can't wait to meet the little guy. Niether can Landon! He is so stinking excited!! He has become my health police. Everything I eat, he says "Is that healthy for baby?" Too cute, huh! He loves his little brother already!!
Tim and I had a nice, long, conversation tonight about delivery anxieties...you know....natural, being induced, c-section??????????????????? That is how I feel. I have been reading and talking to a few people I trust, but this is such a touchy subject. Some folks are so concerned with pushing their beliefs on you that you can't even separate out their biased opinions from what is logical. I have thought about opening up the discussion on facebook just to get some ideas and reasons why people believe what they do. But, people can't just leave it at that. So, I will probably avoid that can of worms and continue talking with people around me and praying for the best decisions for Judah and me.
This post has sort of been more like a ramble than a pregnancy update. Maybe I will do better next time around, but no promises! :)
Wednesday, August 1, 2012
Good one, mom.
20 weeks, 5 days We're over halfway now! I have conquered more time than I have left! (I know it's not that much, but it sure makes me feel gooooood!)
I'm going to tell a story about my first big mommy blunder.
Keep in mind that I had just began an antibiotic known to turn bodily fluids bright orange. Kind of like Gatorade, really.
So, my favorite big brother and best friend is moving to TN for grad school...yada yada....I'm not going to write about that because I'm already feeling emotional after a long day at work. Anyway, so to "celebrate," he, some friends and us went to TGI Friday's Friday night and then planned to go to the Rumba. The Rumba, by class, is a restaurant, but has a bar, and is sort of a bar like scene. We have been there and enjoyed it before.It is, It was a fairly calm, relaxed place, with comfy bench seats that I really like. When we got there Friday night, there was evena family with small children eating at [our] table. It started off normal, but then it appeared that Jersey Shore came to Little Rock and invaded our once calm, relaxed hang out. There was a massive group of big haired girls in little bitty clothes and meat head guys, also in little bitty clothes. The longer I sat there, the worse I felt. "This is no place for a pregnant lady." .... "How could you be so senseless?" ...... "What part of going down town sounded good for a wee little 20 week old baby?"....."He can hear everything going on. He must feel so stressed out." ....The thoughts that circled through my mind. Finally, I told Tim and my Friend Josie that I was ready to go. On the drive back to the restaurant to drop off Josie at her car, I started feeling sick...holding back a few gags in the truck as to try and not completely gross out my husband and my friend. I'm not sure if it was the spinach dip, the late night, the heat, the stress....or maybe all of those...that caused me to be so sick. We no more got into the parking lot that I swung open the door and bolted for the grass. It was really bad. Poor Josie. She is such a champ. If having a baby required a maid of honor, she would be a two-timer for me! She so calmly held my hair out of the disgusting load that was coming out of my mouth, and waited so patiently for me to finish. Of course I peed myself, what's new about that? I sat on a plastic bag on the way home. I felt better for a minute, but by the time we got home I made a mad dash for the bathroom and continued the puke fest once again. I was able to move the rugs this time, since I was already expecting the uncontrollable urination. I'm pretty sure this was the sickest I've been. Even worse than the Olive Garden incident. I was so sick, and so miserable. I was bawling uncontrollably. I heard my husband ask if I was okay and just as I got up I turned around to notice a big, bright orange puddle in the bathroom floor. He assumed the answer to his question was "no." However, he was ever so sweet and so patient and cleaned up after me while I went to take a shower. You know, growing a human being in my womb should make me feel like a SUPER human! Though, when you are puking in parking lots, riding home on plastic bags and your husband has to "clean up after you," that feeling is a little more like INhuman. Funny how that works. Needless to say, this little momma won't be making ANY trips down town any time soon!
In other news:
I think I'm beginning to feel little Judah in my belly! I'm ready for the first big movement that I know for SURE is him! I've been on a search for his bedding! And, I think we've found his furniture! I go back to the doctor next Tuesday and am looking forward to taking big brother Landon with me so he can hear his little brother's heart beat! He and I have began a tradition of singing Twinkle, Twinkle, Little Star to baby Judah every night! Melts my heart. I am so eager to meet our little guy!
My friends John and Mandy are in the process of bringing baby Karsyn into the world, as we speak! So exciting!
I'm going to tell a story about my first big mommy blunder.
Keep in mind that I had just began an antibiotic known to turn bodily fluids bright orange. Kind of like Gatorade, really.
So, my favorite big brother and best friend is moving to TN for grad school...yada yada....I'm not going to write about that because I'm already feeling emotional after a long day at work. Anyway, so to "celebrate," he, some friends and us went to TGI Friday's Friday night and then planned to go to the Rumba. The Rumba, by class, is a restaurant, but has a bar, and is sort of a bar like scene. We have been there and enjoyed it before.
In other news:
I think I'm beginning to feel little Judah in my belly! I'm ready for the first big movement that I know for SURE is him! I've been on a search for his bedding! And, I think we've found his furniture! I go back to the doctor next Tuesday and am looking forward to taking big brother Landon with me so he can hear his little brother's heart beat! He and I have began a tradition of singing Twinkle, Twinkle, Little Star to baby Judah every night! Melts my heart. I am so eager to meet our little guy!
My friends John and Mandy are in the process of bringing baby Karsyn into the world, as we speak! So exciting!
Tuesday, July 24, 2012
Long time, No blog
It has been almost a month since I posed last. We have been very busy this month and I have had so much to say that I have avoided writing it. Plus, I haven't really been "in the mood." It's kind of like when you have 12 loads of laundry, and that is so overhwelming that you don't do any of it.
What's happened in a month?
Well, in case you missed the statuses, pictures, blue balloons, etc., we had our last doctor's appointment on July 9th, and found out that we are having a BOY! I have to be honest. We were totally convinced it was a girl (I guess because of our spider sense, which is obviously way off). Everyone said it would be a girl....I guess maybe we listened like people actually had a way of knowing lol. And, I was a little scared that I might be disappointed in some way if it wasn't a girl. I tried to express those difficult, anxious, emotions to my husband, like any good mental health therapist would do, but it did not have the comforting, reassuring effect I'd hoped for. Nevertheless, the moment our doctor announced that she was 100% positive that Baby Edwards had "penis and scrotum," I could not have been any happier! I am completely and totally in love with this baby boy and could care less about pink and bows. That is the truth. Though I do wonder if my husband is only capable of producing males and worry that I will be the mom with 15 boys, trying to get a girl. Funny stuff.
We had already planned a dinner, get together with our families, because we absolutely would not be able to wait a week to do the whole reveal party thing. Also, it was 2 days after my dad's birthday and we wanted to combine the two. So, Tim and I went and bought some cute boy things and pink and blue cupcakes to help make our announcement. We wrapped up the boy things as my dad's birthday present (because he was dead set on being the FIRST to know, even so much as calling all day trying to convince us to tell him ahead of time lol). We also signed dad's card, "Judah Michael Edwards," because what better birthday present than to have your grandson named after you?! :) Judah's name is kind of a cool story. We had talked very little about boy names (since our spider sense said girl), but one night Tim mentioned that he liked the name Judah. In my head, I knew that "Michael" would fit perfectly, after my dad and my favorite big brother, but never said it to Tim. A few nights later he said he really liked "Judah Michael," and since we are both really into meanings of names, we looked them up. Judah means "Praise," and Michael means "the one who is like Christ." Together they say "Give praise for the one who is like Christ," and so we had our baby boy's name, with no others even in the running. It has been really neat to call him by name.
Also, at our doctor's appointment, our dr. pointed out several things like his 4 chamber heart, his organs, his full 2 lips- meaning no cleft palate, good flow through the umbilical cord, all good signs of a healthy, growing baby! A week later we got results of the blood test, which was negative. Another good sign of a healthy baby. We couldn't be more thankful.
What else? Last week we went on vacation to Seagrove, FL with some of our very best friends in the world! We had an absolute blast. Judah and I shared ice cream nearly every day. It was so convenient to have an ice cream shop in the parking lot of our condo! I justified it since I didn't eat much at "real meals." I dont' eat seafood. And in case you didn't know, seafood places don't do anything else very well, AT ALL. The only bad part of vacation was the drive home. We got stuck in traffic and rain, and I was tired, cranky, and extremely miserable. Almost to the point of tears. I may have snuck in a few under my boppy pillow, which accompanied me every long mile.
Funny story of the week:
Sunday night my stomach was feeling queasy, but not terrible. I got up to use the bathroom and ended up getting really, REALLY sick. I am convinced that I threw up everything I ate on vacation. At the same time, I peed all over myself....again. The worst part was that I was totally aware what was happening, but had absolutely no control over it! Plus, I peed on the bathroom rug. Now, if that doesn't make you feel like a 80 year old poodle, I don't know what will. Thankfully, my husband spent the night before snoring my ears off, so he couldn't say anything when I wet the rug. And, I think he still loves me. Lucky gal! ;)
There is probably so much more to say, but I either can't remember, am getting tired of typing, or both. We are almost half way now, and starting to think of all the things I need to do in the next 20 weeks! I will try to keep up with the blog more often!
What's happened in a month?
Well, in case you missed the statuses, pictures, blue balloons, etc., we had our last doctor's appointment on July 9th, and found out that we are having a BOY! I have to be honest. We were totally convinced it was a girl (I guess because of our spider sense, which is obviously way off). Everyone said it would be a girl....I guess maybe we listened like people actually had a way of knowing lol. And, I was a little scared that I might be disappointed in some way if it wasn't a girl. I tried to express those difficult, anxious, emotions to my husband, like any good mental health therapist would do, but it did not have the comforting, reassuring effect I'd hoped for. Nevertheless, the moment our doctor announced that she was 100% positive that Baby Edwards had "penis and scrotum," I could not have been any happier! I am completely and totally in love with this baby boy and could care less about pink and bows. That is the truth. Though I do wonder if my husband is only capable of producing males and worry that I will be the mom with 15 boys, trying to get a girl. Funny stuff.
We had already planned a dinner, get together with our families, because we absolutely would not be able to wait a week to do the whole reveal party thing. Also, it was 2 days after my dad's birthday and we wanted to combine the two. So, Tim and I went and bought some cute boy things and pink and blue cupcakes to help make our announcement. We wrapped up the boy things as my dad's birthday present (because he was dead set on being the FIRST to know, even so much as calling all day trying to convince us to tell him ahead of time lol). We also signed dad's card, "Judah Michael Edwards," because what better birthday present than to have your grandson named after you?! :) Judah's name is kind of a cool story. We had talked very little about boy names (since our spider sense said girl), but one night Tim mentioned that he liked the name Judah. In my head, I knew that "Michael" would fit perfectly, after my dad and my favorite big brother, but never said it to Tim. A few nights later he said he really liked "Judah Michael," and since we are both really into meanings of names, we looked them up. Judah means "Praise," and Michael means "the one who is like Christ." Together they say "Give praise for the one who is like Christ," and so we had our baby boy's name, with no others even in the running. It has been really neat to call him by name.
Also, at our doctor's appointment, our dr. pointed out several things like his 4 chamber heart, his organs, his full 2 lips- meaning no cleft palate, good flow through the umbilical cord, all good signs of a healthy, growing baby! A week later we got results of the blood test, which was negative. Another good sign of a healthy baby. We couldn't be more thankful.
What else? Last week we went on vacation to Seagrove, FL with some of our very best friends in the world! We had an absolute blast. Judah and I shared ice cream nearly every day. It was so convenient to have an ice cream shop in the parking lot of our condo! I justified it since I didn't eat much at "real meals." I dont' eat seafood. And in case you didn't know, seafood places don't do anything else very well, AT ALL. The only bad part of vacation was the drive home. We got stuck in traffic and rain, and I was tired, cranky, and extremely miserable. Almost to the point of tears. I may have snuck in a few under my boppy pillow, which accompanied me every long mile.
Funny story of the week:
Sunday night my stomach was feeling queasy, but not terrible. I got up to use the bathroom and ended up getting really, REALLY sick. I am convinced that I threw up everything I ate on vacation. At the same time, I peed all over myself....again. The worst part was that I was totally aware what was happening, but had absolutely no control over it! Plus, I peed on the bathroom rug. Now, if that doesn't make you feel like a 80 year old poodle, I don't know what will. Thankfully, my husband spent the night before snoring my ears off, so he couldn't say anything when I wet the rug. And, I think he still loves me. Lucky gal! ;)
There is probably so much more to say, but I either can't remember, am getting tired of typing, or both. We are almost half way now, and starting to think of all the things I need to do in the next 20 weeks! I will try to keep up with the blog more often!
Friday, June 29, 2012
Just a little Friday morning post.
I woke up about 8:00, took my reflux meds, and ate some strawberry oatmeal. Now, I am sitting in bed watching House of Payne and supporting the anti-Obama protest on Facebook. LOL. Perfectly good morning! I have one more hour of lazy before I get ready to go eat lunch with my mom and my brother. More goodness! This is a nice, non-eventful break after last week's hellacious events: 1. Joey in ICU with a vent for MRSA abscess, went home Tuesday. 2. Tim in bed for 3 days passing a kidney stone from Tuesday to Thursday. 3. My mother in law fell at work on Friday (she is doing okay now :) We were all glad to see that week go!
Not much has gone on to write about this week, so I thought I'd just post a few pregnant randoms.
1. I brush my teeth with Landon's sparkle fun, Kid's Crest toothpaste, because the "adult" kind makes me gag. Landon thinks this is the funniest thing ever! It kind of is.
2. I wake up in the morning with a nose full of boogers and dried blood. I don't even know what that's all about.
3. I had a conversation about breastfeeding with a mom of 4 from church and felt not 100% grossed out. That somehow made me hopeful that some mommy instincs are coming out. It was actually a very helpful conversation.
4. I am SICK of taking pills and meds: A HUGE prenatal vitamin, reflux meds or 8 digestive enzymes per day, depending on the day, and a teaspoon of liquid DHA I got from our psychiatrist at work. It feels like I am drinking fish oil. Perhaps because I am. This baby better know I love him/her!
5. I went to a baby shower for little miss Karsyn last Sunday. I think if I can crash a few more of those maybe I will have an idea what I will actually need for a baby!
6. My mom is keeping me clothed in pregnant gear. So thankful!! I am still trying to stretch a few of my "regular" clothes, but it is getting harder every day. Getting dressed is a challenge. And, I've started thinking.... There's pre-pregnant clothes, maternity clothes, and then what? What happens in the pre-getting back to pre-pregnant clothes stage?
7. I saw an article about mayonnaise and feta cheese during pregnancy....both of which I've eaten in the past week. You can really drive yourself crazy trying to balance the dos and do nots of pregnancy. And then there are the mayos and feta cheeses that you don't even know are do nots. I just try to do my best and pray that my body delivers nothing but perfection to the little bundle growing inside.
8. Mom got us a prenatal monitor so that we can hear hiccups and heart beats! So cool!! We should be able to try it out toward the end of the 2nd trimester.
9. I haven't worried a lot about pregnancy and baby, but the things I doworry think about are epidural vs. natural, vaccinate vs. no vaccinate, and where will our baby stay when I go back to work? I know a lot of people have very strong opinions on these....none of which I am interested in hearing....but doing what is right for us and our baby can be a heavy weighing process.
10. 10 More days until we know the gender!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Some non-pregnancy randoms:
1. Our big boy lost his first tooth on Wednesday and he is ADORABLE!!! We slipped a "fairy dust" (aka glittery eye shadow) covered dollar under his pillow and heard about it at 6:30 the next morning. He was so excited! And we have another one coming out soon.
2. Anyone need a house? Ours is still on the market. Praying for a sale before the baby comes in December! We REALLY want to bring him/her home to our new house.
3. I have the VERY best husband in the world! I feel so very lucky to have him in my life and to have a marriage that is so enjoyable! Even a shopping trip to Sam's is fun with him :) Just thought that was worth mentioning.
4. 15 days until VACATION!!!!!!!!! Looking forward to relaxation, beach time and yummy grub with some great friends!!!
Not much has gone on to write about this week, so I thought I'd just post a few pregnant randoms.
1. I brush my teeth with Landon's sparkle fun, Kid's Crest toothpaste, because the "adult" kind makes me gag. Landon thinks this is the funniest thing ever! It kind of is.
2. I wake up in the morning with a nose full of boogers and dried blood. I don't even know what that's all about.
3. I had a conversation about breastfeeding with a mom of 4 from church and felt not 100% grossed out. That somehow made me hopeful that some mommy instincs are coming out. It was actually a very helpful conversation.
4. I am SICK of taking pills and meds: A HUGE prenatal vitamin, reflux meds or 8 digestive enzymes per day, depending on the day, and a teaspoon of liquid DHA I got from our psychiatrist at work. It feels like I am drinking fish oil. Perhaps because I am. This baby better know I love him/her!
5. I went to a baby shower for little miss Karsyn last Sunday. I think if I can crash a few more of those maybe I will have an idea what I will actually need for a baby!
6. My mom is keeping me clothed in pregnant gear. So thankful!! I am still trying to stretch a few of my "regular" clothes, but it is getting harder every day. Getting dressed is a challenge. And, I've started thinking.... There's pre-pregnant clothes, maternity clothes, and then what? What happens in the pre-getting back to pre-pregnant clothes stage?
7. I saw an article about mayonnaise and feta cheese during pregnancy....both of which I've eaten in the past week. You can really drive yourself crazy trying to balance the dos and do nots of pregnancy. And then there are the mayos and feta cheeses that you don't even know are do nots. I just try to do my best and pray that my body delivers nothing but perfection to the little bundle growing inside.
8. Mom got us a prenatal monitor so that we can hear hiccups and heart beats! So cool!! We should be able to try it out toward the end of the 2nd trimester.
9. I haven't worried a lot about pregnancy and baby, but the things I do
10. 10 More days until we know the gender!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Some non-pregnancy randoms:
1. Our big boy lost his first tooth on Wednesday and he is ADORABLE!!! We slipped a "fairy dust" (aka glittery eye shadow) covered dollar under his pillow and heard about it at 6:30 the next morning. He was so excited! And we have another one coming out soon.
2. Anyone need a house? Ours is still on the market. Praying for a sale before the baby comes in December! We REALLY want to bring him/her home to our new house.
3. I have the VERY best husband in the world! I feel so very lucky to have him in my life and to have a marriage that is so enjoyable! Even a shopping trip to Sam's is fun with him :) Just thought that was worth mentioning.
4. 15 days until VACATION!!!!!!!!! Looking forward to relaxation, beach time and yummy grub with some great friends!!!
Monday, June 18, 2012
Guilty Pleasures
My house is a wreck. Laundry is piled up in every room of our house (as usual). We ate out tonight (again). All the clothes I tried on this morning that didn't work out are still strolled all over my bed (that is not even close to being made). My oatmeal bowl from this morning is on the kitchen table. And shamefully, I am currently glued to The Bachelorette. Every season I say I will stop watching it, but I never do. It's just so dang enticing. And while we're talking about guilty pleasures, I totally inhaled a fried peach pie and vanilla ice cream today. Yum! All my fabulous coworkers were disgusted and jealous. I shared one bite.
Now, let's see if I can justify myself somehow.
It has been a long weekend. Not that I am the most effected one at all, because that would totally be my poor little brother and my exhausted parents. However, it has been a long three days. Joey was admitted to St. Vincent on Friday night because he had an abscess in his throat that was cutting off his airways. He had surgery immediately. The abscess turned out to be MRSA staph infection. He spent 3 days in SICU and 2 days on a ventilator because his throat was so swollen that he wasn't able to breathe on his own. They took the vent off yesterday and he moved to a regular room today. Most all of the awful looking tubes have been removed. He got to take a shower and eat some real food today. So, he is looking and feeling much better! The calls, texts, and visits from our family and friends have been overwhelming. You guys are amazing! Times like these are so humbling because they remind you of things like how many and how deeply people care for your family, how incredibly loyal and selfless your parents are, and how awesome it is that the creator of the universe cares to be in the ICU in Little Rock, AR watching over your family. I think I didn't realize the severity of it all until everything was already okay, which I am super thankful for. It is so cool how God works out things like that.
Also, the friend I had you all pray for last week has a HEALTHY, precious little baby boy on the way! Coincidence? I don't think so. :)
In other pregnant news, my friend, Christen, is joining me on this pregnant journey (#3)! I could not be more excited for her! And, Mandy and John are having their shower for Karsyn next Sunday! Lots of fun baby stuff going on! It is really cool to have friends to share the journey with.
I have had a pretty good week pregnancy-wise. I started my acid reflux meds and went a whole week without throwing up! So, I celebrated my vomit-free anniversary by..... vomiting!! So fitting isn't it? It was my fault. I indulged on some wing stop fries that did not agree with this little baby. My chiropractor is against the reflux meds and wants me to take the digestive enzymes he gave me. I truly trust the man, but really? I found a way to stop puking my guts up every day and honestly, I am just too scared to not take it for a day to even try the other stuff!
In other news, I am very confused about prenatal vitamins. I bought the GNC prenatals with iron and got DHA separately. Since then, I've been having this constant, disgusting, taste in my mouth. Everything I read says it probably means my body isn't absorbing it right. Nevermind I am supposed to take 8 pills per day which I am so not okay with. Today Tim was at Wal-Mart so I had him pick up some new vitamins, one pill per day. And they are about 12 feet long. So frustrating. Plus, they only have like 200 mg of DHA and I really think I'm supposed to have something like 1,000 mg????? HEEELLLLPPP!!!!!!!!!
I have had some pretty crazy pregnant dreams lately. I have dreamed our little angel was a boy. I have dreamed it was a girl. I have dreamed that we had to share her/him with another couple. This weekend I dreamed that our baby had the absolute, most unbelievable, ears I have ever seen!! They were massive!!!! I told mom today that I guess if that dream came true I would finally know the answer to a question I have wondered about for so long. "Do parents of ugly babies really think their babies are adorable?" I mean, surely they have got to know their kid is not that attractive. That's not very nice. But it is very honest.
Oh, I am almost forgetting the biggest preggo news I have! I bought my first pair of maternity pants! They are acutally not too bad and I got them for $14 at JC Penney. I was driving home Friday and I reached to unbutton my pants because they were cutting off my circulation. So, I reached down, only to realize that my pants were ALREADY unbuttoned. Straight to the mall. Straight to the maternity section. Bought some new pants. Now I can breathe again.
We have been thinking about fun gender announcements. There are so many neat ideas out there. EVERYONE says it is a girl. BUT, I keep trying to remind myself, that it may not be a girl. LOL. We'll see on July 9th!
Now, let's see if I can justify myself somehow.
It has been a long weekend. Not that I am the most effected one at all, because that would totally be my poor little brother and my exhausted parents. However, it has been a long three days. Joey was admitted to St. Vincent on Friday night because he had an abscess in his throat that was cutting off his airways. He had surgery immediately. The abscess turned out to be MRSA staph infection. He spent 3 days in SICU and 2 days on a ventilator because his throat was so swollen that he wasn't able to breathe on his own. They took the vent off yesterday and he moved to a regular room today. Most all of the awful looking tubes have been removed. He got to take a shower and eat some real food today. So, he is looking and feeling much better! The calls, texts, and visits from our family and friends have been overwhelming. You guys are amazing! Times like these are so humbling because they remind you of things like how many and how deeply people care for your family, how incredibly loyal and selfless your parents are, and how awesome it is that the creator of the universe cares to be in the ICU in Little Rock, AR watching over your family. I think I didn't realize the severity of it all until everything was already okay, which I am super thankful for. It is so cool how God works out things like that.
Also, the friend I had you all pray for last week has a HEALTHY, precious little baby boy on the way! Coincidence? I don't think so. :)
In other pregnant news, my friend, Christen, is joining me on this pregnant journey (#3)! I could not be more excited for her! And, Mandy and John are having their shower for Karsyn next Sunday! Lots of fun baby stuff going on! It is really cool to have friends to share the journey with.
I have had a pretty good week pregnancy-wise. I started my acid reflux meds and went a whole week without throwing up! So, I celebrated my vomit-free anniversary by..... vomiting!! So fitting isn't it? It was my fault. I indulged on some wing stop fries that did not agree with this little baby. My chiropractor is against the reflux meds and wants me to take the digestive enzymes he gave me. I truly trust the man, but really? I found a way to stop puking my guts up every day and honestly, I am just too scared to not take it for a day to even try the other stuff!
In other news, I am very confused about prenatal vitamins. I bought the GNC prenatals with iron and got DHA separately. Since then, I've been having this constant, disgusting, taste in my mouth. Everything I read says it probably means my body isn't absorbing it right. Nevermind I am supposed to take 8 pills per day which I am so not okay with. Today Tim was at Wal-Mart so I had him pick up some new vitamins, one pill per day. And they are about 12 feet long. So frustrating. Plus, they only have like 200 mg of DHA and I really think I'm supposed to have something like 1,000 mg????? HEEELLLLPPP!!!!!!!!!
I have had some pretty crazy pregnant dreams lately. I have dreamed our little angel was a boy. I have dreamed it was a girl. I have dreamed that we had to share her/him with another couple. This weekend I dreamed that our baby had the absolute, most unbelievable, ears I have ever seen!! They were massive!!!! I told mom today that I guess if that dream came true I would finally know the answer to a question I have wondered about for so long. "Do parents of ugly babies really think their babies are adorable?" I mean, surely they have got to know their kid is not that attractive. That's not very nice. But it is very honest.
Oh, I am almost forgetting the biggest preggo news I have! I bought my first pair of maternity pants! They are acutally not too bad and I got them for $14 at JC Penney. I was driving home Friday and I reached to unbutton my pants because they were cutting off my circulation. So, I reached down, only to realize that my pants were ALREADY unbuttoned. Straight to the mall. Straight to the maternity section. Bought some new pants. Now I can breathe again.
We have been thinking about fun gender announcements. There are so many neat ideas out there. EVERYONE says it is a girl. BUT, I keep trying to remind myself, that it may not be a girl. LOL. We'll see on July 9th!
Tuesday, June 12, 2012
1 down, 2 to go!
Happy 2nd Trimester to me!!! 13 weeks and 4 days, today. I'd like to say something like "Hooray, I survived the 1st trimester!" But, it wasn't all that bad. And, the only really, super, terrible part of it....the acid reflux....shows no signs of letting up. However, I have been VERY consistent with my Pepcid this week, and that has helped a lot! It's still kind of unruly at night, but much better. Plus, the doc gave me a perscription for it yesterday, so hopefully that will work a miracle in my esophagus.
I have noticed the passing of food aversions and would, if my body allowed, be eating just about anything I was before I was pregnant. But, I have still been trying to avoid acidic food and drinks. As awful as it is, I am a tad thankful, because I think it may be helping me to manage my weight. Not only do I have to be careful of what I eat and drink, but I also have to eat small meals, very slowly. I have only gained something like 3-4 lbs, so I'm very glad of that. I have seriously tried not to take the "free for all buffet" approach, so maybe that will pay off. Or, maybe it will turn into that in a few months. lol who knows!
I started a new prenatal vitamin this week. I'm taking the prenatal with iron from GNC and adding DHA. The pills are huge and apparently you are supposed to take two at a time. I've only been taking one. My thought process says better to take one than to dread taking two so bad that I don't take any. Anyone have any suggestions/comments about that? Seriously, I'm open to them.
In other really great news, I went for my 2nd appointment yesterday! I left work about 3:00 and could not get to Conway fast enough! Tim wasn't able to get off work, unfortunately, but my mom did get to go with me and that was really nice! I was absolutely blown away by how much our little baby has grown! He/she is almost 8 cm! That's 5 more than last time!! The cute little thing was wiggling like crazy in there! It was the coolest thing ever! We could see arms and legs moving, a tiny little spine, his/her jaw bone, eyes, nose.....goodness, it was incredible! Dr. Lawrence tried to look for gender-telling parts, but the little swimmer was too busy lol. She said for sure next time we would be able to tell! YAAAYY!!! I really don't understand how people don't want to know the gender lol, but to each his own! WE are finding out! :) The heartbeat was still going strong and everything looked great, so we are overjoyed! However, I did learn that my blood type is B-. Maybe that makes sense to some of you, but it didn't to me. It was explained to me like this ..... B- is a rare blood type. If my baby has a + blood type, my blood may try to destroy my baby's blood. Maybe not this pregnancy, but probably the next. Anyway, I was reassured that it's not a huge deal. But, I will have to get the RhoGAM shot at 7 months and at any other time there is a chance of my blood mixing with the baby's. Mom says my dad's sister and niece both had this shot and it was truly not a big deal. That was reassuring. Moms are so good for reassurance! :) I posted the ultrasound pics on facebook, so hopefully you all saw them. I looked at them until I fell asleep last night, and reached for them first thing this morning. So amazing. To this point, I had not gotten teary, mostly just really huge smiles. But, on one of those pictures my mom pointed out our baby's little toes that I hadn't noticed before. I stared at those sweet toes and just cried. There really is no describing how amazing it really is. I'm sure this is something many first time mothers have said, but there is truly, truly no making sense of how someone could willingly abort a child. HOW can anyone say that is NOT a baby???? I heard your heart beating with my own ears. I see your little nose, your eyes, your mouth. Dumbfounds me. People are willing to fight to save trees, but willingly kill babies. Sad. No excuses.
Well, let's brighten this blog up for a moment! After I picked up Landon today I got to show him the pictures of our baby! His reactions when talking about the baby are priceless!!! He is all smiles!! I showed him these pictures compared to the last and he said "WHOA WEENIE!! He is growing so big!" I helped him find all the body parts and layed him in the position the baby was in. He thought it was really funny that the baby's leg was bent up to it's stomach. I'm hoping to be able to take him to the next appointment. I think he would really love that. Though, he is still stuck on naming the baby Bruce.....after the Hulk, of course. Boys will be boys.
I feel like there is more to talk about, but I'm drawing a blank. I am exhausted tonight after a full day of work, grocery shopping, cleaning the house, cooking dinner, and doing progress notes. Better rest up huh, morning will be here far too soon! Hump day tomorrow! Friday is on the way!
Oh, I did want to ask you guys to pray for a special friend of mine. She is one month ahead of me and some test results showed elevated blood levels. She goes back to the doctor on Monday. Please pray for peace, reassurance, and a perfectly healthy baby! She will be the greatest mom!
I have noticed the passing of food aversions and would, if my body allowed, be eating just about anything I was before I was pregnant. But, I have still been trying to avoid acidic food and drinks. As awful as it is, I am a tad thankful, because I think it may be helping me to manage my weight. Not only do I have to be careful of what I eat and drink, but I also have to eat small meals, very slowly. I have only gained something like 3-4 lbs, so I'm very glad of that. I have seriously tried not to take the "free for all buffet" approach, so maybe that will pay off. Or, maybe it will turn into that in a few months. lol who knows!
I started a new prenatal vitamin this week. I'm taking the prenatal with iron from GNC and adding DHA. The pills are huge and apparently you are supposed to take two at a time. I've only been taking one. My thought process says better to take one than to dread taking two so bad that I don't take any. Anyone have any suggestions/comments about that? Seriously, I'm open to them.
In other really great news, I went for my 2nd appointment yesterday! I left work about 3:00 and could not get to Conway fast enough! Tim wasn't able to get off work, unfortunately, but my mom did get to go with me and that was really nice! I was absolutely blown away by how much our little baby has grown! He/she is almost 8 cm! That's 5 more than last time!! The cute little thing was wiggling like crazy in there! It was the coolest thing ever! We could see arms and legs moving, a tiny little spine, his/her jaw bone, eyes, nose.....goodness, it was incredible! Dr. Lawrence tried to look for gender-telling parts, but the little swimmer was too busy lol. She said for sure next time we would be able to tell! YAAAYY!!! I really don't understand how people don't want to know the gender lol, but to each his own! WE are finding out! :) The heartbeat was still going strong and everything looked great, so we are overjoyed! However, I did learn that my blood type is B-. Maybe that makes sense to some of you, but it didn't to me. It was explained to me like this ..... B- is a rare blood type. If my baby has a + blood type, my blood may try to destroy my baby's blood. Maybe not this pregnancy, but probably the next. Anyway, I was reassured that it's not a huge deal. But, I will have to get the RhoGAM shot at 7 months and at any other time there is a chance of my blood mixing with the baby's. Mom says my dad's sister and niece both had this shot and it was truly not a big deal. That was reassuring. Moms are so good for reassurance! :) I posted the ultrasound pics on facebook, so hopefully you all saw them. I looked at them until I fell asleep last night, and reached for them first thing this morning. So amazing. To this point, I had not gotten teary, mostly just really huge smiles. But, on one of those pictures my mom pointed out our baby's little toes that I hadn't noticed before. I stared at those sweet toes and just cried. There really is no describing how amazing it really is. I'm sure this is something many first time mothers have said, but there is truly, truly no making sense of how someone could willingly abort a child. HOW can anyone say that is NOT a baby???? I heard your heart beating with my own ears. I see your little nose, your eyes, your mouth. Dumbfounds me. People are willing to fight to save trees, but willingly kill babies. Sad. No excuses.
Well, let's brighten this blog up for a moment! After I picked up Landon today I got to show him the pictures of our baby! His reactions when talking about the baby are priceless!!! He is all smiles!! I showed him these pictures compared to the last and he said "WHOA WEENIE!! He is growing so big!" I helped him find all the body parts and layed him in the position the baby was in. He thought it was really funny that the baby's leg was bent up to it's stomach. I'm hoping to be able to take him to the next appointment. I think he would really love that. Though, he is still stuck on naming the baby Bruce.....after the Hulk, of course. Boys will be boys.
I feel like there is more to talk about, but I'm drawing a blank. I am exhausted tonight after a full day of work, grocery shopping, cleaning the house, cooking dinner, and doing progress notes. Better rest up huh, morning will be here far too soon! Hump day tomorrow! Friday is on the way!
Oh, I did want to ask you guys to pray for a special friend of mine. She is one month ahead of me and some test results showed elevated blood levels. She goes back to the doctor on Monday. Please pray for peace, reassurance, and a perfectly healthy baby! She will be the greatest mom!
Saturday, June 2, 2012
The storm before the calm
Where to begin.....
Well, we are 12 weeks and 1 day today. Everyone keeps telling me the 2nd trimester is muuuuch better...and I believe them, I really do. However, I think my pregnant body is attempting to take one more good run at me before it comes. My pregnancy really hasn't been much to complain about. But, this past week I have been more exhausted than I ever was in the first 11 weeks. And, indigestion continues to be my arch enemy (more on that later). Needless to say, this has been a challenging week, in more ways than one.
No thanks to pregnancy and all thanks to clients who don't consider our services a priority and who instead no show because they "don't feel well," or had [ANOTHER] "flat tire," I had the worst billing week I've had in the 15 months I've been working at Families, Inc. With a reminder from my sweet momma that this sweet baby feels everything I do, I have tried not to stress about it, and hope for the best in the last 3 weeks of this billing cycle. I have even tried to look on the bright side and been thankful for less work since I was already so exhausted.
So, yesterday I decided to de-stress a little and spend the day with my favorite 5 year old in the whole world. We were going to "paint our own pottery," and go to the pool! We drove to Cabot with intentions of painting daddy something cool for Father's Day, only to see a "For Rent" sign in the window. Boo for that plan. And, it was 65 degrees. Pool weather? I think not. We went anyway. Annnnd.....it definitely warmed up. In fact, it warmed up so much that my pregnant skin burnt like a lobster. I am not use to sunburns! Typically, if I get a sunburn at all, it is a nice, smooth, mocha color by morning. This morning, I continued to look rather lobster-ish. At least it doesn't really hurt.
This morning my best friend, who also happens to be my husband, and me enjoyed our routine, Saturday morning Cracker Barrel breakfast. It was more like brunch, so I had the chicken and rice. YUM! Afterwards, we went to the mall, something else we do a lot of on Saturdays. (Ladies, I will NEVER be able to complain about taking my man shopping! He wears ME out at the mall! Seriously!) We found Landon some shorts for summer since he has outgrown his. Tim also found a few summer pieces. And...... we ventured to the maternity store for the first time. I'm not going to lie, I was a little nervous! Not because I am opposed to maternity clothes, but because I am clueless about them, and a little unsure if I should be wearing them yet or not. But, something's gotta' give because the usuals just aren't cutting it anymore! (Well, actually they are cutting it. That's the problem.) We went to Motherhood Maternity, and the saleswoman was the sweetest, most helpful person in the world! Yes, I am going to put in a plug for her. So, if you need some maternity gear, go see Ms. Velma! She saved my life today. There was a fun velcro bump in the dressing room to try on with the clothes. We had a lot of fun with that! And, my sweet, compassionate, supportive husband was right outside the dressing room the entire time.......with lots of laughs and a camera phone! PUNK! Ha! Really though, it was a good laugh. I tried on several pairs of maternity jeans and decided I wasn't ready yet. But, I did get a really cute maxi dress (that I would wear even if I wasn't pregnant). Oh, speaking of maternity clothes, I went over to my brother's to get a pair of sandals that were still in my old closet, and while I was there, I found a dress that I love that was always too big. Perfect timing! Also while I was there I got to reminisce for a short bit, about the year I lived with him. We had a lot of fun, mostly watching Golden Girls marathons and going to Applebee's for happy hour! Living with him was one of the best decisions I ever made. :)
Now to the good (well, really bad) part.....
This afternoon, Tim and I visited happy hour at Sonic on the way to the last Tball game. I try to be so careful with this acid/indigestion junk, so I avoided caffeine AND citrus, and opted for a cranberry juice instead. Apparently everyone knows cranberry juice is incredibly acidic, except me. Dang. Went to the game. It was very hot. We played a great game, but lost. I started to feel the indigestion creeping up and that nasty burning sensation, all the while thinking, "but I've been so careful today!" We went to Olive Garden wtih the fam and as soon as we got there, I was dry heaving in the parking lot. When we got inside Landon announced that "Weenie trowed up!" (That is exactly how he says it.) I thought I was ok. I wasn't. I went to the bathroom to endure the dreaded acid. IT. WAS. AWFUL. By far, the worst pregnant experience to date. After dry heaving for a good 5 minutes and trying not to sound incredibly gross.....because I am in a public bathroom, and well aware that I am a VERY ugly vomiter, like worse than the average vomiter.... I proceeded to throw up a gallon of fire. At least, that's what it felt like. And if that wasn't bad enough, I totally peed all over myself mid-vomit. Not just a trinkle, I mean PEED ALL OVER MYSELF! So, there I was...a throwing up fire, peed on, and now bawling...mess. Thank goodness for my sweet momma right outside the stall with a wet towel, reminding me that this will pass and I will have a sweet baby girl, or boy, instead. Also, I have a great family who was still willing to eat dinner with my mess of self! I am feeling better tonight. Thanks for asking. :)
On a good note, we only have 8 more days until our next doctor's appointment. I am really glad for a few reasons. 1. Hopefully Dr. Lawrence will have a better suggestion for managing the indigestion. 2. We will see our little 2 inch sweetheart! 3. I'm hoping that she will tell me I, in fact, don't have the kidney infection that I suspect. Here's to hoping for the best!
Well, we are 12 weeks and 1 day today. Everyone keeps telling me the 2nd trimester is muuuuch better...and I believe them, I really do. However, I think my pregnant body is attempting to take one more good run at me before it comes. My pregnancy really hasn't been much to complain about. But, this past week I have been more exhausted than I ever was in the first 11 weeks. And, indigestion continues to be my arch enemy (more on that later). Needless to say, this has been a challenging week, in more ways than one.
No thanks to pregnancy and all thanks to clients who don't consider our services a priority and who instead no show because they "don't feel well," or had [ANOTHER] "flat tire," I had the worst billing week I've had in the 15 months I've been working at Families, Inc. With a reminder from my sweet momma that this sweet baby feels everything I do, I have tried not to stress about it, and hope for the best in the last 3 weeks of this billing cycle. I have even tried to look on the bright side and been thankful for less work since I was already so exhausted.
So, yesterday I decided to de-stress a little and spend the day with my favorite 5 year old in the whole world. We were going to "paint our own pottery," and go to the pool! We drove to Cabot with intentions of painting daddy something cool for Father's Day, only to see a "For Rent" sign in the window. Boo for that plan. And, it was 65 degrees. Pool weather? I think not. We went anyway. Annnnd.....it definitely warmed up. In fact, it warmed up so much that my pregnant skin burnt like a lobster. I am not use to sunburns! Typically, if I get a sunburn at all, it is a nice, smooth, mocha color by morning. This morning, I continued to look rather lobster-ish. At least it doesn't really hurt.
This morning my best friend, who also happens to be my husband, and me enjoyed our routine, Saturday morning Cracker Barrel breakfast. It was more like brunch, so I had the chicken and rice. YUM! Afterwards, we went to the mall, something else we do a lot of on Saturdays. (Ladies, I will NEVER be able to complain about taking my man shopping! He wears ME out at the mall! Seriously!) We found Landon some shorts for summer since he has outgrown his. Tim also found a few summer pieces. And...... we ventured to the maternity store for the first time. I'm not going to lie, I was a little nervous! Not because I am opposed to maternity clothes, but because I am clueless about them, and a little unsure if I should be wearing them yet or not. But, something's gotta' give because the usuals just aren't cutting it anymore! (Well, actually they are cutting it. That's the problem.) We went to Motherhood Maternity, and the saleswoman was the sweetest, most helpful person in the world! Yes, I am going to put in a plug for her. So, if you need some maternity gear, go see Ms. Velma! She saved my life today. There was a fun velcro bump in the dressing room to try on with the clothes. We had a lot of fun with that! And, my sweet, compassionate, supportive husband was right outside the dressing room the entire time.......with lots of laughs and a camera phone! PUNK! Ha! Really though, it was a good laugh. I tried on several pairs of maternity jeans and decided I wasn't ready yet. But, I did get a really cute maxi dress (that I would wear even if I wasn't pregnant). Oh, speaking of maternity clothes, I went over to my brother's to get a pair of sandals that were still in my old closet, and while I was there, I found a dress that I love that was always too big. Perfect timing! Also while I was there I got to reminisce for a short bit, about the year I lived with him. We had a lot of fun, mostly watching Golden Girls marathons and going to Applebee's for happy hour! Living with him was one of the best decisions I ever made. :)
Now to the good (well, really bad) part.....
This afternoon, Tim and I visited happy hour at Sonic on the way to the last Tball game. I try to be so careful with this acid/indigestion junk, so I avoided caffeine AND citrus, and opted for a cranberry juice instead. Apparently everyone knows cranberry juice is incredibly acidic, except me. Dang. Went to the game. It was very hot. We played a great game, but lost. I started to feel the indigestion creeping up and that nasty burning sensation, all the while thinking, "but I've been so careful today!" We went to Olive Garden wtih the fam and as soon as we got there, I was dry heaving in the parking lot. When we got inside Landon announced that "Weenie trowed up!" (That is exactly how he says it.) I thought I was ok. I wasn't. I went to the bathroom to endure the dreaded acid. IT. WAS. AWFUL. By far, the worst pregnant experience to date. After dry heaving for a good 5 minutes and trying not to sound incredibly gross.....because I am in a public bathroom, and well aware that I am a VERY ugly vomiter, like worse than the average vomiter.... I proceeded to throw up a gallon of fire. At least, that's what it felt like. And if that wasn't bad enough, I totally peed all over myself mid-vomit. Not just a trinkle, I mean PEED ALL OVER MYSELF! So, there I was...a throwing up fire, peed on, and now bawling...mess. Thank goodness for my sweet momma right outside the stall with a wet towel, reminding me that this will pass and I will have a sweet baby girl, or boy, instead. Also, I have a great family who was still willing to eat dinner with my mess of self! I am feeling better tonight. Thanks for asking. :)
On a good note, we only have 8 more days until our next doctor's appointment. I am really glad for a few reasons. 1. Hopefully Dr. Lawrence will have a better suggestion for managing the indigestion. 2. We will see our little 2 inch sweetheart! 3. I'm hoping that she will tell me I, in fact, don't have the kidney infection that I suspect. Here's to hoping for the best!
Tuesday, May 22, 2012
Indigestion from Hades.
10 weeks and 4 days today and I am already inpatient about meeting our sweet baby! I keep seeing pictures on Facebook of all the newborns and I get incredible urges to hold our sweet one in my arms. Seven months seems so far away, even though I know it will pass quickly.
My current vices don't make the waiting game any easier either: indigestion and exhaustion. More indigestion than exhaustion. That seems to be the only thing that really makes me sick...as in throw up sick. And, it is not fun. It comes if my stomach is a tad empty, or if it's a tad full, a really hard balance to keep. Exhaustion comes and goes. Yesterday, I was exhausted before I ever left for work. Then, after work, I picked up Landon and we ran home to change for Tball, went to the game, ate supper, and by this time I am about to drop dead. Then......I still had work notes and intake paperwork to do. The indigestion came and I spent a while hovered over the porcelain throne. My sweet husband brought me a warm wash cloth, which was intended to clean myself up. Instead, I planted my face in it and sobbed for a few minutes, while thinking to myself....here come the hormones. But, I don't do well with exhaustion while not growing a human, so I'm thinking it was just amplified. Anyway, I finished the notes and went to bed. Today, I made it through the work day okay, but tonight, it is weighing on me. I'm hoping to get some snuggle time with my boys and get in bed early.
Some big events have happened since my last post. Our big boy graduated from Pre-K! He was adorable in his little cap & gown! Then we celebrated at the park that night. I am amazed at how much he has grown this year, in all sorts of ways. We were fortunate to have 2 great teachers at Clinton Elementary that were so good to him. That boy makes me so proud! There is another [bigger] boy that I am also super proud of! My favorite big brother in the whole world graduated on Saturday, with a BS in Mathematics, and Magna Cum Laude honors! He wore something like 1 stole, 2 medals, and 4-5 cords. Ridiculous. He is incredibly smart. But more than that, he is so focused, so dedicated and works harder at school than anyone I know! Truly, I am envious of his passion. And, truly, I am thankful to have him as a brother and a best friend. Also, I'm glad he is not moving to TN in August. He was accepted to a PHD program at the U of TN, where they offered him paid tuition, a stipend, health insurance...I didn't tell him when he was weighing the options, because of course I wanted to be supportive, but after I found out about the offer, I had a mini mental break down in the kitchen floor. If someone would've told me that would happen 15 years ago when he threw a cat on my back and I stabbed him with a pen....I would've never belived them. But, I am so thankful for our relationship, and that he has decided to start his graduate career here in AR, for at least this year.
I had a nice text chat with a sweet friend who is also pregnant. She is much farther than me, but it is fun to talk and relate anyway! John and Mandy will welcome their sweet baby Karsyn in just 10 short weeks! They are going to be great parents!
In other random thoughts, I am looking forward to a 4 day weekend, and a trip to Florida in July! Oh, and especially our next doctor's appointment on June 11th! It can't come soon enough! :)
My current vices don't make the waiting game any easier either: indigestion and exhaustion. More indigestion than exhaustion. That seems to be the only thing that really makes me sick...as in throw up sick. And, it is not fun. It comes if my stomach is a tad empty, or if it's a tad full, a really hard balance to keep. Exhaustion comes and goes. Yesterday, I was exhausted before I ever left for work. Then, after work, I picked up Landon and we ran home to change for Tball, went to the game, ate supper, and by this time I am about to drop dead. Then......I still had work notes and intake paperwork to do. The indigestion came and I spent a while hovered over the porcelain throne. My sweet husband brought me a warm wash cloth, which was intended to clean myself up. Instead, I planted my face in it and sobbed for a few minutes, while thinking to myself....here come the hormones. But, I don't do well with exhaustion while not growing a human, so I'm thinking it was just amplified. Anyway, I finished the notes and went to bed. Today, I made it through the work day okay, but tonight, it is weighing on me. I'm hoping to get some snuggle time with my boys and get in bed early.
Some big events have happened since my last post. Our big boy graduated from Pre-K! He was adorable in his little cap & gown! Then we celebrated at the park that night. I am amazed at how much he has grown this year, in all sorts of ways. We were fortunate to have 2 great teachers at Clinton Elementary that were so good to him. That boy makes me so proud! There is another [bigger] boy that I am also super proud of! My favorite big brother in the whole world graduated on Saturday, with a BS in Mathematics, and Magna Cum Laude honors! He wore something like 1 stole, 2 medals, and 4-5 cords. Ridiculous. He is incredibly smart. But more than that, he is so focused, so dedicated and works harder at school than anyone I know! Truly, I am envious of his passion. And, truly, I am thankful to have him as a brother and a best friend. Also, I'm glad he is not moving to TN in August. He was accepted to a PHD program at the U of TN, where they offered him paid tuition, a stipend, health insurance...I didn't tell him when he was weighing the options, because of course I wanted to be supportive, but after I found out about the offer, I had a mini mental break down in the kitchen floor. If someone would've told me that would happen 15 years ago when he threw a cat on my back and I stabbed him with a pen....I would've never belived them. But, I am so thankful for our relationship, and that he has decided to start his graduate career here in AR, for at least this year.
I had a nice text chat with a sweet friend who is also pregnant. She is much farther than me, but it is fun to talk and relate anyway! John and Mandy will welcome their sweet baby Karsyn in just 10 short weeks! They are going to be great parents!
In other random thoughts, I am looking forward to a 4 day weekend, and a trip to Florida in July! Oh, and especially our next doctor's appointment on June 11th! It can't come soon enough! :)
Monday, May 14, 2012
I knew I wouldn't be super consistent with this thing...
I feel like there usually isn't enough in one day to write about. So, I guess I will continue this habit of playing catch up. What's new in pregnancy land? I guess you could say I'm getting down with the sickness. Well, today has been fine...so far. But, Friday night I had a puke fest in the shower. That was nice. Saturday & Sunday were much the same. My lower back and hips are starting to have some minor pains. And, I am completely exhausted. Though, that could be due to the on-call night from hell last night, that kept me up until 1:30. Oh the joys of being a mental health therapist! P.S I truly am very thankful or my job! (Just not the week I'm on call!)
Mother's Day was great! I got all sorts of sweet texts, calls, cards, etc. wishing me a Happy Mother's Day! This was my first [biological] Mother's Day, though I really consider last year as my first! It was the first Mother's Day I spent as a step mommy to Landon. Being a step mom is another post for another day, but I will say getting to share in that boy's life has been one of the biggest blessings of mine! He and his momma got me the sweetest card and the most adorable picture frame, with a puppy picture in it lol, that says "I love you this big." That is Landon's and my "thing," you know, that we say to each other, usually while singing the Scotty McCreery song. Always makes me smile. I got to spend half of the day with my momma, and the other half with my other momma, my mother in law, rather "in love," I like to say. Moms are so special and I could not say enough about how amazing my mom is, and my mother in law too. I am thankful that I've never experienced any truth to the horrid in laws jokes. Having a mother in law like mine is better than the yummy, cream cheese fruit dip I made this afternoon! Really, she is amazing.
I have yet to start taking "pregnant belly pictues," even though I really want to. I guess I am lacking motivation in some areas....so says the ENORMOUS pile of laundry in our closet! It is truly scary. Anyway, I don't think you are supposed to be "showing," just yet, but I, and many others, can definitely tell there is something growing in this belly of mine! Baby Edwards is showing herself/himself early!
I ate strawberries, and the previously mentioned fruit dip for dinner tonight, before the T-ball game, and when I got home I had some Fruity Pebbles. I don't really have cravings, but sometimes eat weird things because nothing at all sounds appealing. I'm pretty sure I have developed a taste aversion to meat. I've heard other mommas experienced the same type of thing, but it is so strange. I eat a lot of fruit and crackers.
Oh, speaking of T-ball, I will end this post with one of my future goals as a mommy. I hope to spend many, many summers at the ball field, and many, many winters in the gym. I grew up this way and it turned out just fine for me! Really, I am so glad Landon is playing T-ball and really hope our new little bundly of joy will love sports too! I would say I want to be a soccer mom, but honestly I can't stand soccer.
Mother's Day was great! I got all sorts of sweet texts, calls, cards, etc. wishing me a Happy Mother's Day! This was my first [biological] Mother's Day, though I really consider last year as my first! It was the first Mother's Day I spent as a step mommy to Landon. Being a step mom is another post for another day, but I will say getting to share in that boy's life has been one of the biggest blessings of mine! He and his momma got me the sweetest card and the most adorable picture frame, with a puppy picture in it lol, that says "I love you this big." That is Landon's and my "thing," you know, that we say to each other, usually while singing the Scotty McCreery song. Always makes me smile. I got to spend half of the day with my momma, and the other half with my other momma, my mother in law, rather "in love," I like to say. Moms are so special and I could not say enough about how amazing my mom is, and my mother in law too. I am thankful that I've never experienced any truth to the horrid in laws jokes. Having a mother in law like mine is better than the yummy, cream cheese fruit dip I made this afternoon! Really, she is amazing.
I have yet to start taking "pregnant belly pictues," even though I really want to. I guess I am lacking motivation in some areas....so says the ENORMOUS pile of laundry in our closet! It is truly scary. Anyway, I don't think you are supposed to be "showing," just yet, but I, and many others, can definitely tell there is something growing in this belly of mine! Baby Edwards is showing herself/himself early!
I ate strawberries, and the previously mentioned fruit dip for dinner tonight, before the T-ball game, and when I got home I had some Fruity Pebbles. I don't really have cravings, but sometimes eat weird things because nothing at all sounds appealing. I'm pretty sure I have developed a taste aversion to meat. I've heard other mommas experienced the same type of thing, but it is so strange. I eat a lot of fruit and crackers.
Oh, speaking of T-ball, I will end this post with one of my future goals as a mommy. I hope to spend many, many summers at the ball field, and many, many winters in the gym. I grew up this way and it turned out just fine for me! Really, I am so glad Landon is playing T-ball and really hope our new little bundly of joy will love sports too! I would say I want to be a soccer mom, but honestly I can't stand soccer.
Tuesday, May 8, 2012
The Blood Line
Today is worth posting about if only for one reason alone. Today, my mom made homemade chicken and dressing, and then drove an hour (1 way) to drop it off at our house, and then turn right back around and drive another hour home. Can anyone say WOW?!?!?! My mom is amazing!!! And, the chicken and dressing.....well, I don't even know that there are words to describe such deliciousness!! For a second, I thought about being surprised that she would do that! But, really, I can't be. She ALWAYS goes out of her way for us. The chicken and dressing delivery was encouraging for -at least- two reasons. 1. I am reassured that I will never, ever go hungry, or without anything for that matter, because I such amazing people in my life. And, 2. I am reminded that I, myself, come from this "drive 2 hours to deliver homemade chicken and dressing" bloodline. If you're wondering what in the world that has to do with anything.... Well, it gives me hope that maybe, just maybe, my mom's awesome mom genes found their way into my bloodstream, too. In other words, I hope that I will be just half the mom she is, because she made me the woman I am today. Not to mention, she is the world's best, best friend too. And, let's not leave out dad, who called shortly afterwards to ask if I could "crave" beef enchiladas tomorrow. LOL. I told him I would try to take one for the team. Dad is a silly goose. And, I love him with all my heart. I am a daddy's girl to the core. I don't know how I got so lucky to have my parents.....or my husband...or my brothers...or my mother in law...or the rest of my family and friends. I am SO super blessed by the relationships I have in my life. There is something comforting about knowing you are never alone. In other news, we had a Tball game tonight. Landon is the best T-ball player in the world. And I'm not just saying that because he's ours. There are probably studies or something to back that up. Oh, I will end with this! Today, I showed Landon the picture of our little baby. He smiled really big and said "it kinda looks like an owl!"
Monday, May 7, 2012
Let's play catch up...
Everything I've read about pregnancy says "be sure to keep a journal." I've put this off for a while, thinking "what would I even write?" I meant to start it last week when I ate strawberry ice cream and baby dill pickles for dinner. And then, I meant to start again when indigestion struck...and struck again. But, I decided today, after seeing our sweet little baby for the first time, that today would be the day. Tim and I had our first doctor's appointment at Conway Women's Health Center (yes, even though we live in Jacksonville, because I am stubborn and don't take too well to change...especially when it involves giving birth). We thought we were about 8 weeks along, but it turns out we're closer to 9! Yay! However, Dr. Lawrence says we will stick with the original count for the due date....December 14th, 2012. In just 7 short months our (part time) family of 3, will become a (full time) 4! WOW! So now, let's play catch up....... I will try to make this long story, short. Last year I had a lot of "female" complications.....we can all handle it if I say it that way right? A few ovarian cysts, stage 3 endometriosis, 3 surgeries and a week in the hospital, to be exact. Obviously, I was worried about being able to conceive. We believed that God would be faithful, as always. But, my small minded self still had some concerns. Around November last year, we felt we had confirmation and "the go ahead" from God, but weren't sure if now was the time or if we were just supposed to rest in knowing that everything was ok when the time comes. At the end of March, we decided to see what would happen.....on April 9th, we got TWO positive pregnancy tests! SO faithful isn't he?! We held the big secret for one whole night! LOL! The next day we arranged an "emergency" family dinner and made these cool picture cards with a super cute picture of Landon that said "I'm going to be a big brother!" (And a great one at that, might I add!!) When we told Landon, he was SO excited!!! .....because he thought it was going to be "...a baby dog. Because I really want a baby dog." HA! I think he has gotten over the disapointment that we are actually growing a human instead. Really though, he is so excited and will be such a great big brother! He has the biggest heart of any kid I've ever known and I am so incredibly blessed, not to mention humbled, to be a part of his life. So, I guess that about sums it up! As of today, our big news is Facebook official. We're in the big time now. :)
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